I am a 40yo who switched careers to nursing after a long previous career in nothing related to nursing. I absolutely dread going to work each shift. I feel so inadequate and... sure, I realize that I'm new, however, this constant cheering on by other staff to stick it out a year isn't encouraging and I was a pretty strong, no BS person in my former career. I am drained. I work in a high-risk facility and deal with so many problem patients, deaths, STAT everything, etc. I am hyper-aware of how litigious this area is, and I'm always waiting for a patient to pounce or my manager to scrutinize my documentation. I received an orientation with inconsistent preceptors, feel there's always something I didn't learn daily and overall, in my past career, I would have been well on my way to good at this point. I spent so much money re-educating myself for a BSN, and I feel like I made a huge mistake. I'm trying to see if I can find a middle ground of a more administrative position or perhaps something in an office. I don't even care what specialty anymore (L+D was what I was in love with in nursing school), but I want a normal outside life again and could care less what specialty. The hours are crushing my health and my family notices how drained I am, impatient, angry and fed up, which makes me feel so defeated and embarrassed. I don't know what avenues are even out there for a newbie that are slower and less stressful, or is this it for me? This is nursing, suck it up and deal? I'm at the end of my rope here. I need some advice from anyone. Ready to just cry each shift, but I need to bring home a paycheck and hide my discontent.