So... I am on orientation in an L&D unit, where I felt so sure (for a long time) that I wanted to be. I have a pretty solid nursing background (8 years, some ICU) and consider myself to be fairly smart, conscientious, and careful. The problem is that I made a mistake the other day on the job and it is absolutely killing me. I don't want to give specifics, because I can't bear the comments that may come back telling me how stupid/dangerous/wrong it was to do that. I KNOW. I cannot figure out for the life of me why I made the mistake, why I didn't talk to my preceptor before giving the med as I always do otherwise, why I didn't carefully read the policy, why, why, why. I am sick about it for so many reasons: I could have caused harm to the patient and her baby (thankfully, nothing happened). I am ashamed and embarrassed in front of my new coworkers, who will see me as careless or stupid or dangerous now. I wonder if I should even be working here in this high intensity, litigation-likely, high-stakes area. And, I wonder if I should even be a nurse.
I guess I am looking for advice on how to get over this. Or for someone to tell me to find a new job. 'Cause I've already been looking.
So... I am on orientation in an L&D unit, where I felt so sure (for a long time) that I wanted to be. I have a pretty solid nursing background (8 years, some ICU) and consider myself to be fairly smart, conscientious, and careful. The problem is that I made a mistake the other day on the job and it is absolutely killing me. I don't want to give specifics, because I can't bear the comments that may come back telling me how stupid/dangerous/wrong it was to do that. I KNOW. I cannot figure out for the life of me why I made the mistake, why I didn't talk to my preceptor before giving the med as I always do otherwise, why I didn't carefully read the policy, why, why, why. I am sick about it for so many reasons: I could have caused harm to the patient and her baby (thankfully, nothing happened). I am ashamed and embarrassed in front of my new coworkers, who will see me as careless or stupid or dangerous now. I wonder if I should even be working here in this high intensity, litigation-likely, high-stakes area. And, I wonder if I should even be a nurse.
I guess I am looking for advice on how to get over this. Or for someone to tell me to find a new job. 'Cause I've already been looking.
Thanks.