My firstborn daughter passed away at age four through a drowning accident. It has taken several years for me to come to terms with the loss. To be truthful, I don't believe I have yet. I have not visited her gravesite since she was buried.
As a student studying this awesome profession, I know there may come a time where my daughters' scenario may replay itslef out in a form of another trajedy and I will be exposed to this. It is my fear that perhaps I may lose composure and not competently be able to do my job in this life or death situation.
But on the otherhand I feel it is my duty to follow my heart in being able to develop the skills necessary that may help me aid in the recovery of a little girl that is fighting for her life in the future.
Should I discontinue my studies in nursing and pursue a career "safe" from relapses or should I go through with it anyway?