I graduated not too long ago from a university that is not in my home state.I was blessed enough to take nclex after graduation. Pass on the first try and be hired a week later at an absolutely wonderful hospital. I love my job. I love my coworkers but........ I am miserable.I have none of my friends around. I have no family around. I drive 2 hours to work. I can hardly afford my rent. I don't go out. I'd love to go back to school but i can hardly afford to buy gas much less pay school tuition. I sleep in my car so that i can get overtime at work to pay my piling bills and loans. I am schizotypal so making close connections is incredibly difficult if not impossible for me. I go through personal interactions with precise forgery I've had years to practice. I just don't know what I'm doing with my life. Sometimes i feel like I'm in a sound proof bubble. Looking out at those around me. I feel like I'm going to lose everyone I love and instead of being with them for however long I'd be granted, i chose to be here because of a job. I did not see my life being like this.