Is it me?

rn undisclosed name · Jul 25, 2004

I know I thought it would be so great to have the summer off too. But, I think with me it's a combination of things. On the one hand I am so glad to have all my pre-req's done and don't think I could handle taking even 1 more non-nursing class and then I am also so excited (yet scared) to start the nursing program. I think it's just that we are about to embark on a totally new adventure. Normally I enjoy my summer's off.

Next week, I have my CPR class and am looking forward to going to school. Everyone thinks I'm crazy but when you are at home with 2 kids that seem to fight all the time I am really going to enjoy it. But, I keep telling myself I should enjoy it because it will be gone before I know it. Then I'll be counting down the days til the end of the semester. So, I know how you feel. I hope the jibberish I just wrote makes sense.

Ali_Oop07 · Jul 25, 2004

I get depressed when I have a week off! That is why I HAD to find a summer job.

My advice is to get up and get dressed every morning. Put on some make up! Do NOT stay in your PJs all day!

Take a walk or a drive just to get out of the house. Check out volunteer jobs at the local hospital! You will get through it!

Ali

arealqt · Jul 26, 2004

i don't know what is going on, and i just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced this. i've been out of school since june, anxiously waiting to start nursing in sept. at first the thought of having a summer off was great. being that i haven't had a "summer off" to actually do nothing since i was 15. but suddenly, i feel awful, literally. first i caught a cold, then for no reason, i found myself depressed the other day. i have had minor panic attacks, again for no reason. and now my menstrual cycle has ceased. (not due to pregnancy)
could i be going through some type of school withdrawal? this is the first time in my life; i'm not doing anything (productive). i mean, i admit, i hate not working, it was a real struggle to feel so dependent on my husband, and take the role of homemaker.(i had quit my job to go to school). but i've come to terms with that. however, i really think being idle is bad for my mental and physical health. i've tried to keep busy, but for some reason it's not good enough or not meaningful enough. i know it's not stress, because i don't have any, not to mention i've had unimaginable stress before, (i was an emt for nine years, and went through a&p finals during the death of my beloved dog)..yet never have felt like this awful. i'm just wandering if anyone else out there is feeling like me. let me know.

wow!!!! after reading this post...i dont know what to say. i graduated may 2004 w/ my a.a, and was also awaiting my acceptance letter from the nursing program and my mind has been a total wreck. i am not working either because i quit my job to spend more time with my children being that i was working and schooling full-time for the whole 2 years. all of these problems you have expressed ... i am feeling now. sad to say today i found out that after 5 tries, i missed the cutoff into the nursing prog by 1 point (talk about added stress). i am up all nite sometimes wondering what the heck am i gonna do for the next 4 mths i am out of school. i have been trying to find things to do that are productive as well. i have found that reading books interests me, so when i am not cleaning house and taking care of kids... i am reading (only books that make me laugh and are full of drama,lol). i have also started to do little odds and ends on my house as well. i was surprised that there was someone who was experiencing the same exact things i have been mentally and physically. its all stress i think. i am determined not to give up!! i have come to far. i just look at this time as a resting period for me to prepare myself and get ready for what is to come. whatever you do dont give up. this is not just a time to prepare but also to relax and free your mind. no staying up late studying for tests or doing homework for us. lets enjoy this time we are out and know that its only temporary and in a few months we'll be running around like chickens with their heads cut-off praying we hadnt stressed so much but enjoyed this time off. lol. be blessed.

mariedoreen · Jul 26, 2004

sad to say today i found out that after 5 tries, i missed the cutoff into the nursing prog by 1 point (talk about added stress).

i'm so sorry! how frustrating when you've worked so hard! what happens now? are you guaranteed in at a later date or do you have to reapply?

J Lynn · Jul 26, 2004

Staying at home doing nothing can get you real depressed. It did for me. I quit my job after 8 years of working to stay home with a new baby. I thought "This is soooo great, no more getting in the car, going to work, dealing with people, just home watching TV, holding my baby, that's it". Well, I slipped into depression by the end of the second year of staying home. Then I started nusing school and saw a big difference in my moods 'cause I was getting out of bed for a reason. But the stress of school sent me into panic attacks.....and that's another story.

Just so you know, you're not alone. As you can see, you have a lot of support here. When you feel bummed, just log in a chit chat with us. If you feel like it's controlling your everyday activities......see your doctor for some antidepressents/antianxiety meds. They were like a miracle for me.

Sheri257 · Jul 27, 2004

I have mixed feelings about school breaks too. It can be depressing or, actually, boring. But, at the same time, I'm so stressed with school all the time, I know I need the down time.

I'm actually pretty good at being lazy and doing nothing.

:chuckle

arealqt · Jul 27, 2004

I'm so sorry! How frustrating when you've worked so hard! What happens now? Are you guaranteed in at a later date or do you have to reapply?

Its okay,really. I have to reapply. Ill have to submit all the information again and pray that I get in again. The anxiety is over now for me. I know how competitive it is nowadays. I think the "waiting process" is what really stresses me. You have to wait 6-8 weeks. I was so sure I was gonna get in, and when I had my son read me the letter... it felt like my heart exploded. I even retook the Nursing Entrance Exam improving my scores this time. I was disappointed but there is absolutely NO WAY I am giving up. I look on this site a lot cause A LOT of people on here go thru the same things I have and just one little response makes the biggest difference. They (the notes) are words that encourage, and lift my spirits when I feel like giving up. The program doesnt guarantee anything. Sometimes if a person is very close to the cutoff, and the ones who have been accepted dont respond w/in a certain time for orientation, administration will contact the next available applicants and give them the seats. Marie...its hard sometimes thinking of all I have been thru as a single mom w/ 2 kids maintaining my 3.5 Gpa, working and schooling full-time. But one thing I have learned from this experience, and that is that no matter what happens...always surround myself w/positive people and NEVER give up.

arealqt · Jul 27, 2004

Just so you know, you're not alone. As you can see, you have a lot of support here. When you feel bummed, just log in a chit chat with us. If you feel like it's controlling your everyday activities......see your doctor for some antidepressents/antianxiety meds. They were like a miracle for me.

I almost cried when I read this because no matter how crazy it seems, I find my BEST support on this site. Thank you.

danaRN2b · Jul 27, 2004

I'm so glad that I'm not the only one who feels like she's going crazy! I've been cooped up in my house all summer with my four kids & feel like the walls are closing in on me. Add to that the fact that my husband has not worked all summer, so is also home underfoot all day...INSANITY! I am counting down the days until school starts up again...August 18th cannot get here fast enough. I've spent many, many days feeling depressed (staying in bed all day, not doing laundry for days on end) and angry (yelling at the cat, the dog, anyone who crosses my path), and guilty for feeling that way. I shouldn't be so selfish, I know--lots of people would give their eye teeth to be able to spend time at home without anything to do, but it's frustrating for me. I feel the same as another poster who stated that preparing for nursing school (pre-reqs, application process) was the thing that kept her going. I've been a stay at home mom for four years now, and I felt like I was losing myself in all of the care that my kids require. I spend day in and day out doing for other people, and now with nursing school, I'm finally doing something for myself.

Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble. Just remember, there are lots of others who feel the same way you do...summer will be over soon & back to school we go! :balloons:

Paleobug · Jul 27, 2004

I'm feeling kind of blah too. I finished a couple of summer classes last month, and now I'm just waiting to start nursing school at the end of next month. I'm in between doing anything right now. I had planned on going camping with a friend for a week, but it was canceled because she had a family emergency. I have a full load of classes including micro in the fall so I plan on not working. Five weeks isn't long enough to find a job just to quit it. I'll just enjoy this time now, because it's going to be very hectic soon.

shortsteph12 · Jul 27, 2004

Well I am glad that some others feel the same way I do. I enjoyed the time with nothing to do but clean the house & cook and laundry etc. Which isn't exactly nothing to do, but you know what I mean. One of my neighbors is a stay at home mom and she has a degree in teaching she relishes being home with her kids. I think its a different kind of personality. I have a larger garden this year because I know that once I start working I will have to make it smaller. But I know that next year I will not have much time on my hands. I am telling myself this is the last summer you may have off for a very long time. This web site has been wonderful support. Just try to give yourself several tasks to do each day and try to spend at least one day doing something fun with the kids. ( water park, fair, museum etc) these are memories that they will cherish and will give yourself something to look forwards to. I think part of my problem is that none of my close friends live closer than an hour which makes it hard to plan things with them so at school I have the camaraderie of the other students. Good luck & take care of yourself !

DZcarrie · Jul 27, 2004

i get to feeling like that whenever i'm not doing anything. on weekends even....

i always feel like there's something productive i could be doing instead of relaxing. i can't relax until it's all done....i lay in bed at night and think of what needs to be dusted...literally.

mild case of OCD? i don't think so. i think it's just that i've always been really active and i honestly don't know how to act when i'm not!

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