I had something happen to me two nights ago, and I have been thinking about how much It changed me. I have watched people lose thier loved ones, and although always sad, I've never truly known what it feels like to watch someone you love die. I'm talking about activley watching it, not getting a phone call later. Both are sad situations but the first I think is unique and traumatic in it's own way.
I had to put my beloved Cat to sleep two nights ago. I know what you're thinking....."Really? Her Cat?" Well, my little fur baby died in my arms and I have never felt such heartache and grief in my entire life as I did in that moment. I have lost both of my Grandmothers, but neither of them in front of me. I have watched countless family members lose their loved ones and always have felt sad for them but never did I truly know what it was like. I still don't and I can promise you I dread the day....... I am not comparing losing a feline companion to losing a Mother or a Father, mind you. I am just in awe of how painful It was/is to feel his little body fade away in my arms. I have a new respect for this process and anyone who has to be there with someone who goes through it. All I can think is if I hurt this bad over my little kitty how does anyone move on after losing a parent or spouse in the same way. Wow. Just food for thought, and I wanted to share. I am still grieving and am sitting here typing away with no furball to keep me warm.