Hi there friends,
My name is Marie K. Cline. I'm a international-trained nurse from Cebu, Philippines. I live here in Ohio now since Dec. 26, 2006. Ever since I got here it had been toil for me getting to qualify for the nclex-rn. As any international-trained graduates I had to take on the toefl.ibt test (english profeciency exam) and the cgfns to qualify for the nclex. I failed my first take for the toefl.ibt last sept. 08 and passed my 2nd take of nov.08. I passed my cgfns qualifications of oct'08. Now all I have to do is pass the nclex-rn to be a registered nurse and so I can get a job here in united states. Unfortunately I took my 1st take last yr of july 25th of 2008 with 75questions, but I didnt made it. So I decided to study harder and see if I could revamp myself and do a better job the next time around. So I did my best, actually my very best. I wasn't really a bad studid. Actually I was top in my class back home (Phils. ) but somehow I just couldn't pass this test. I took my 2nd try for the exam last wednesday of Aug 13' 09. After I got home, I tried the trick yesterday and it let me go through the cc/payment option. I was totally upset. I was bawling yesterday, even today, this morning, but now I've found peace with myself I guess I'm ready to get back in track, but I just couldn't believe that I didnt made it because I was really calm and sure of myself when i took the test except for the calculation part which I was totally bummed and cofused if I had the right answers, other than that I had SATA's and Med-surg problems that I was really sure I had them right but those 4 calculation problems I had was a total mind-game for me. Mini-maini-moo...geez i was just totally guessing. I had the same problem with my first try last year drugs and calculation. I'll be waiting for my paper trail (big brown envelope as they say hehee) so I can see where I headed wrong. Other than that, I just felt really down right now. But I'm not giving up. It's awful to fail...but we won't really appreciate success if we dont fall right?
Like one poet had once said, "The highest reward for a man's toil is not what he gets for it, but what he becomes by it."- by John Rustin
It's tough it really tough guys, for all of us that didn't made it. But let's be happy for the ones that did made it. Let's help each other get through this last pedestal for our success to become a bonafide registered nurses in the future. It's really awful that we have to go through this challenge in our lives inorder to be measured if we are adequate nurses but the fact remains the board just wanna make sure that we are reliable nurses to serve our patients/clients and that we are responsible leaders for our colleagues.
I wanna share this poem to you guys that have truly made my day despite of the fact that I didnt made it of passing the exam. I found this poem in one of my chicken soup for the soul book and it goes like this:
"DON'T QUIT" -BY Clinton Howell
When things go wrong,
As they sometimes will,
When the road you've truding seems all uphill,
when the funds are low, and the debts are high,
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you muchst, but don't quit.
Life is queer with a twist and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
when he might have won had he only had stuck it out;
Don't quive up though the pace seems slown,
You might succeed with another blow.
Success is a failure turned inside out,
the silver lingina a tint of the clouds of doubt.
And you may never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're at your hardest hit,
It's when things seemed worst,
that YOU MUST NOT QUIT!
Don't ever give up.
"I hope I have made some of you out there hopeful..for I am hopeful too that one day I'll pass this exam once and for all. It may be a long and winding road even turbulent and bloody but hey we'll get there! In my side of the story I do only have one chance for this exam becuase if I don't make it then I have to go through another set of toef.ibt and cgfns again, which I certainly don't wanna go through all those exams again. I mention earlier right that I'm an international-trained nurse. Well, inorder for us to qualify for the boards we have to take on the toefl.ibt and cgfns, now my toefl and cgfns are going to expire this nov.04 of this year so If I dont pass the nclex this time around then I have to apply for the boards starting back at one and that is to take on another english proficiency exam and entrance exam. So it totally sucks! But I don't be negativist! I wanna be hopeful and optimist. So that's why i'm encourage everyone who's in my shoe to the same this. Stay Positive and Reach your dreams. Never give up on those dreams ever. Do not let anybody pull you down. Stand up with a Smile and Go on Living. Live your dreams. And for all of us that didn't made it hey, let's all help one other and make it a success. Cheer up! It's not the end of it all...we have to stand up tall, and aim high ti'll we reach the top with a sigh."-Marie Dee K. Cline
Just tired I guess. But, never quit right? And keep on fighting. Yes we can be RNs, never doubt that!!! We'll both stay positive, and keep studying harder and surely I know we will pass. (If others can, so can We.) 
(Sorry for the word). But I definitely, will set myself back on the working train...and get it done. Right? 
And having failed twice since July 08 have really made me feel bad and disappointed of myself...to me and to my family back home and my family here in the states. I mean I dont believe I'm stupid but having failed really get to me y'know it makes me feel down of myself trying to pass th is test. But I wont let it get the best of me. It's not the end of the world they said. So I'm getting back on gear and riding that chuchu train to success...studying hard and working my ass of day and night ti'll I finally get that license one day. So to all of you out there, trying to pass this test. Never give up. Nor will I. Let's stay positive and true to ourselves. One day will be there. I do believe that. In God's grace...we will be there. I believe that whatever journey we have to go through life...God has planned for us to make us a better person, for ourselves, for our loves ones, and His people.
i wish you well.. take care..:heartbeat
kittiebabe
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:heartbeat"marie.. so how are you preparing this time? i see that you need to retake the test before the end of october.. im planning to take the exam hopefully by that time too.. i just dont feel quite ready yet.. just arrived here in the states last feb.. though i have been coming here as a visitor since 2001.. i really hope we cam be RNs soon.. did you take the NLE back home?":heartbeat
Hi there! Sorry for the late reply been busy trying to get my new study plan organized. It's kinda hard to concentrate after knowing I just failed last week, now I'm back on the dot again trying to prep. for the same exam. Totally mind-blowing!!! I feel like a mental retard...just totally losing it! Hehehehe!
:lol_hitti:smackingf Anyhow, I haven't gotten my ATT yet, I'm still waiting for it. Though, I know I have to study again for my 3rd take :barf02:it's really making me sick in my head and in my stomach:barf01:. But I'm not giving up:clown:. I haven't really decided when to take it but I do have to do it early oct. so I still can managed to reapply to the same state board of ohio if I don't make it. Not that I dont wanna make it, I'm trying to keep positive, but sometimes the the thought of not making it just seems so vivid in my mind after failing y'know. You've heard right, that my credentials expires by oct.25 of 09. So if I dont make it again, by then, (not that I dont wanna pass) I still have one more chance to reapply for state of ohio, before I start reapplying again but now with a different state, coz honestly I don't think we can afford another cgfns and toefl.ibt exam plus nclex. It's just too much already! My husband is already bankcrupt because of me paying for all this exams and my review classes and books. I feel totally embarassed of myself to him and his family and to my family back there in the Phils.:trout: I got here Dec. 26, 2006, and then we applied for the state board as soon as we got here. They didn't accept my ielts test score, they said they only require toef. So I had to take a review for the exam since I failed my first take last sept.25'07. (I reviewed with kaplan and ets online) Finally I passed last Nov.04'07. The same year that I got all my credential accredited from cgfns which is going to expire by oct.25 of this year (since both report scores are only good for 2 yrs). 
So, after passing the toef.ibt I enrolled for kaplan online thinking I can do it by myself. And finaly took my 1st take of July25'08, and sad to say I didn't made it. My report score said I was below the passing standard of all the 8 categories. So i decided to study hard and review the nsg. content for the nclex-rn blueprint by just using saunders and lacharity. (Since I've heard a couple of american and filipino nurses passed jst by using these resources). However, I didn't made it. I took it last Aug. 13 of 09 my 2nd take but found out 2 days later I didn't made it. My report said that I was below the passing standard with management of care, reduction of risk potential and health promotion categories. I was near the passing standard with the other 5 categories. I was totally disappointed with myself and i feel like I let my family back in the Phils. down esp. my dad and so are my family here in states esp. my husband and my inlaws. I mean, I'm not really dumb at nsg. school but this test is just too hard for me. I only get 50-60% plus scores on my quizzes and never managed to get any higher than 75% for my ncsbn online exams. That i just purchased this week. Anyhow, I'm not letting this let-down get the best of me. It's time to get my butt back on gear and study hard. I'm not giving up. If the other's can..then so can We, right? So, I've been trying to get my studyplan organized...and hopefully it'll work for me. I dont want to cram anymore, but if I have to I will. I jst need to get this test done and over with. 
I really hope we can be RN's too sweety. Nope I didn't took my NLE. As soon as I graduated (2003), I was already working as Company Nurse and staff nurse for Perpetual succour hospt. at the same time My husband I were busy finalizing my immigration paperworks to get here in the states. I finally got here 2006. How about u?what state are u from?