I honestly can't believe I did it

[augurey]

Back in January my husband and I were a little shocked to find out I was pregnant. Before I applied to my program, I had asked if the pregnancy would be an issue as I was due towards the beginning of the semester. They assured me that the instructors would work with me.

Prior to the start of the first semester, I spoke with the instructors and program chair. They said they'd absolutely work with me, but obviously if I had to miss to much lab and/or clinical time, I'd have to withdraw and re-start next year (worst case scenario).

With my first I had a c section. I was planning for a VBAC, but it was never guaranteed, but I felt a VBAC would increase my odds of succeeding. I really thought if I had to have a repeat c section that I would have to withdraw. I know many do it all the time. Have a baby and go straight back to school. Even with c sections, many can go back after a week. I'm in awe of those who are able to do that.

At the start of my 4th week I ended up needing a repeat c section due to some complications. I was out for 3 weeks. I could do some small assignments to keep up, but I was otherwise drugged up most of the 3 weeks. Even if I had wanted to return earlier, my doctor wouldn't have cleared me. She was hesitant to clear me to return to class when she did.

The day before I was due to return, it all came crashing down on me. The weight of what I had ahead of me really overwhelmed me. I truly didn't think I'd get through it. I had to make up 3 quizzes, 3 tests, and 2 check offs. My instructors were absolutely amazing in working with me.

I had everything but the check offs completed by my second week back. They scheduled my check offs (vitals and head to toe) for today which was a little more nerve wracking as clinicals start on Tuesday, and I had to have them done by then. Fortunately I passed them on my first go. Though regrettably cried during vitals. It was building up all morning, and I just couldn't stop it. But again my instructors are amazing, and I was able to get my mind back on track and through the rest of my check offs.

It just feels strange to be sitting on this side of it when I didn't think I was going to be able to do it. I still have a high A in A&P and managing a B in Fundamentals. It really gives me hope that I can get through the rest.