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  1. augurey

    Stupid, lazy, or ADHD?

    I'm only a student, but I was diagnosed back in May shortly after my second semester ended. I questioned for a very long time on whether or not it could be a possibility, but without really understanding it, being able to hyperfocus made me think it couldn't be possible. I didn't even know it was a thing. I was uneducated and really thought that someone would be nothing but hyperactive and unable to pay attention. The other times I wanted to question it and ask, I was scared to ask about it as I thought I'd just be seen as someone trying to get drugs. After my second semester, I honestly was about to quit. I started thinking about ADHD again and decided to get more information on it before I went and talked to someone about it. It was in that moment that my life started making sense. So many things hit so close to home. Over the next week or so I'd continue reading to see if certain quirks had anything to do it. I found myself laughing and crying at the same time as I started understanding more about myself. I started treatment, and I truly wish I had asked for help a long time ago. While I certainly still face challenges, I'm able to manage better. My relationship with my husband improved. It's obvious when I don't take meds on any given day. My husband even told me that he prefers me on drugs My relationship with classmates have improved. I've always been that shy person just about my entire life which really isolated me from classmates. I'm still shy-ish, but I do have more confidence and have started being able to form better relationships with my classmates. I feel like a "normal" person rather than like the outcast I had felt like most of my life. I've not been very open about my diagnosis. My husband knows as well as my parents, brother, and sister-in-law, but I haven't really said much to anyone else. School is aware. I spoke with the personal/academic counselor shortly after diagnosis, and she was amazing and really made me feel supported.
  2. augurey

    How to Nab those Nursing Scholarships $$

    I've generally avoided applying for scholarships as it's always felt so overwhelming. Plus I never really had qualities that would give me a shot (other than entries that don't require anything - just the luck of the draw). I've been considering applying for some now, though. However, I don't feel like stand a chance. I've looked through the ones offered through my school. I have to wait until next year to apply as I don't currently meet their requirements; however, if I continue to do well, then I should qualify and hopefully have a shot next year. I had a high GPA (around 3.7) by the time I graduated high school. I had gone two colleges and did horribly. I only completed a few classes; the rest were just withdraws/F (as I had just stopped going - a very long time ago). I had since attended a for profit school (Fall 2014) and earned a high GPA in the 1.5 semesters I was there. Due to their accreditation, my GPA never counted towards anything. I recently started a regionally accredited program, getting in by the skin of my teeth. If I'm applying for scholarships directed towards nursing students, when they specify that a certain GPA is required, is it cumulative or is it nursing program only? I know it's probably a silly question, but I don't know if it's worth it to bother applying to the majority if my grades before were lousy, even though I'm doing well now. Also, if you have a less than stellar GPA because of screwing up 10+ years ago, but are doing well now, how do you even stand a chance at getting scholarships that aren't luck of the draw only? Or is my only chance those luck of the draw scholarships?
  3. lol it's not as bad as it sounds! It actually saves me money doing it that way. The coffee/caffeine shot is in one of those little creamer containers. It does the same as making a cup of coffee would. It saves me from having to buy coffee and I use so much less creamer (in coffee, I dump so much creamer in to make it tolerable).
  4. I can't afford coffee shops, so I mostly stick with homemade coffee with an extra coffee/caffeine shot or two. Sometimes just the coffee/caffeine shot in a shot glass with some of my favorite creamer.
  5. augurey

    How Are You Easing Your First Day Jitters?

    Sounds very similar to me, except I just have the 1 baby! (I carried the insurance, too) When do you start? I think quitting the job was the scariest part of it all. We could do financial projections all we want, but there's really no way to know for sure how it'll all work out. As far as the financial stuff, while I do worry about it, I've put it on the back burner at let my husband carry the weight of that - which I realize sounds awful! It doesn't mean that I'll go out blowing money we don't have or that I don't care about our finances (because I absolutely do!), but I realized my job is to focus on school, and getting through school. I guess I should say I do put my energy into worrying. I put what energy I have into being proactive instead of reactive. I feel bad about my husband because he worries to the point he loses sleep. I try my hardest to encourage him and offer suggestions on what we can do to save money. With my job, I was at a dead end. Even with 8 1/2 years experience, any other place I applied to only wanted to hire at minimum wage, entry level. We'd actually be worse off in this situation. The way I put it to my husband: The only way for us to move forward is for us to take a step back. This is risky for us, but it'll be much more beneficial in the end. So, while I can't say things will be okay financially, you'll find a way to make it work, even though it's going to be hard. You got this!
  6. augurey

    How Are You Easing Your First Day Jitters?

    I actually went into my medical assisting class my junior and senior year of high school with the intent to go into nursing after graduating high school. The fear of making a mistake and costing someone their life completely terrified me enough to the point where I decided not to go into nursing. It wasn't necessarily a bad decision on my part. I wasn't mature enough nor do I think I was ready in general. I worked in medical billing for almost 8 1/2 years. I was promoted several times. I was scared every time I took a new position, but my 8 1/2 years of experience really taught me that being scared is kind of silly. You learn what you don't know, you master it, and then you just do it. There's no more fear. I'll be 30 in the fall, so if it took me this long to figure that out, I'll take it. Honestly, at this time last year, I don't think I was ready either. My daughter will be 1 this Saturday, and I think that having her and everything we've been through has just kind of put me where I needed to be. Best of luck to you! When is your first day? ******** Orientation is tomorrow evening. I really cannot express how excited I am. Ever since my original post, all the fear and anxiety left me. Several years ago I was struggling with depression. I'd been struggling with it since I was 14. I woke up one day and was just tired of feeling that way. I gave myself a deadline to feel whatever I needed to feel, but by my deadline, things would be different. My deadline was, I believe, 3 weeks. Within a week, I knew I didn't need that much time. From that day forward, I started picking up the pieces, started living my life. I was hoping that I could do the same with this, and I did. The only thing that I still feel a little nervous about is time management and trying to find the time to study and do homework. During the day I'll be a stay at home mom to my 1 year old and will be attending class in the evenings. We can't afford to put her in daycare with one income. She'll be there an hour a day during the time I have to leave and my husband gets home. That alone will be a stretch for us. I'm trying not to let this get to me as I don't even know what to expect with school yet. My husband and I are thinking of ideas of how to handle this, but at the same time, there's not a whole lot that can be done until I'm actually in school, but we'll at least be ready to start putting plans into action. So, I'm just going to take one thing at a time, one day at a time. It'll all work out.
  7. augurey

    How Are You Easing Your First Day Jitters?

    That's one of the things I've been thinking about a lot lately. I was in a Medical Assisting program during my last 2 years of high school. My grades were excellent, and I thoroughly enjoyed the class, but I always dreaded lab because I never had the confidence in what I was doing. At the end of my junior year, we learned injections. We didn't have to give an injection; it was optional. I actually opted out because I was too scared! I've always looked back on that and thought how silly that was and how I missed out on such an opportunity. I've been trying to psych myself up for school, especially for labs and clinicals. I've talked to some new grads and every one of them has said to just throw yourself into the clinicals. I'm ready for it (I want to add 'sort of', but I think that's just gives me an out and excuse to not be, so I won't say 'sort of'). It's just a matter of reminding myself that it's essential. I've already noticed a difference in how I feel with just the small steps I've taken. While I was grocery shopping the other day, I asked another customer on her opinion on a product. Without hesitation or increased heart rate, respiration, and perspiration. Normally I, mentally, go back and forth on whether or not I should and if I do, what will they think. This evening I was able to talk to my husband's extended family (that I don't know well) without the physical symptoms that would normally accompany these conversations. It's paying off. I know I have a long way to go still, but I've seen the progress that shows that this is working and that it'll be okay. Talking in a group is the hardest for me which I know I'll have to wait for school to start before I can start working on that. I went into this knowing that I had to get over shyness. I know that it may not completely go away, but I can't be a nurse being so shy (I used to be much worse actually). How can I speak up for the patient if I can't speak up for myself?
  8. A month ago, I wasn't nervous. I was pretty much just excited. The reality of nursing school didn't start to sink in until I had put in my notice at work, but still, my first day still felt so long away. My last day of work was 2 days ago. I've given myself 2 days to veg out, get our house and affairs in order. We're going to be poor. It's going to be very hard. This is the only way for us to do this. Next week my daughter will be home from daycare with me. We'll spend my last free week trying to get into a routine. Now that I'm officially unemployed, I'm terrified. The reality of it all has sunk in finally. I'm a nursing student. Our lives are forever changed from this point on whether I become a nurse or I fail out. I've read through numerous threads about how hard classes are, how tough clinicals can be, putting in IVs, blowing veins, writing up care plans, etc. As I read, I could feel the blood drain from my face. Self doubt became stronger and more uncontrollable. I've gone to my husband numerous times already and have asked him how I'm going to do this and that I'm going to fail out. He (kindly) reminds me all the time that I will learn. This is what I'm going to school for. All of my classmates are right there with me, learning with me. I just have to be sure to study hard. I've since decided that I have control over this. I want this, so I'm going to make this happen. I've realized just how powerful the mind is, how powerful fear is. Fear has the capability to hold us back. Fear has been holding me back for nearly 30 years now. I'm tired of letting fear control my life. I want to reclaim my life and be the person I want to be and the person who I feel I really am. I have another obstacle to get through though: shyness. During my interview with the director of nursing, I was asked what my weakness was: shyness. I don't feel shyness is necessarily a weakness in general, but in the nursing program, this is my weakness. It's held me back so many times in my life. I've missed out on life because of it. Now, every opportunity I get, I work to overcome shyness. On my last day of work, I was called into the kitchen where I found all of my coworkers waiting for me. My face turned beat red. I could feel my insides churning. Then I thought, "You're going to be a nurse. Buck up." Suddenly, the way I felt changed. Parts of me were still trembling, but my face no longer glowed a fierce red. I had more confidence. Why shouldn't I? I'm done sweating the small stuff. I'm done worrying about things that I don't have control over. I'm done worrying about the unknown. I think back to when I took my TEAS at the beginning of July. I read thread after thread about how hard the TEAS were. I've been out of school for 10 years with less than 2 weeks to study. When I was worried or consumed in self doubt, I was absolutely useless. Once I accepted it is what it is, everything fell into place. I've realized that confidence and a positive attitude go a long way. I'm now looking ahead to my first day with confidence and excitement.
  9. Same here! For start date and orientation I'm so anxious about it though. Determined, excited, terrified.
  10. Just a couple of month shy of 30.
  11. Failing out. Especially since I'm quitting my job so I can focus on school. If I fail out, it will have all been for nothing.