I started an ADN nursing program over a year ago and graduate in May. I have the highest average in class, and I really seem to be doing well. However; I hate everything nursing, I really only started the program because I was bored, and now I feel to far invested to quite. I have to keep telling myself that this is a great job, but in reallity this job holds a lot of responsibility, "crappy responsibility." In addition I feel tremendous pressure from my family, my husband, and my husbands family to finish and work. It's not like I don't already have a BSN from another university, and my husband makes an excellent salary, I don't have to work. I keep hoping that all the pretentious people in class with their over enthusiastic "I love nursing" attitude will be non-existent in the workplace. This is me just venting, but if you have any productive advice or have felt this way I would love a response. However; if you are just wanting to tell me how terrible I am, please keep it to yourself.
I started an ADN nursing program over a year ago and graduate in May. I have the highest average in class, and I really seem to be doing well. However; I hate everything nursing, I really only started the program because I was bored, and now I feel to far invested to quite. I have to keep telling myself that this is a great job, but in reallity this job holds a lot of responsibility, "crappy responsibility." In addition I feel tremendous pressure from my family, my husband, and my husbands family to finish and work. It's not like I don't already have a BSN from another university, and my husband makes an excellent salary, I don't have to work. I keep hoping that all the pretentious people in class with their over enthusiastic "I love nursing" attitude will be non-existent in the workplace. This is me just venting, but if you have any productive advice or have felt this way I would love a response. However; if you are just wanting to tell me how terrible I am, please keep it to yourself.
Wow . As others have stated, I think you should finish the program (since you're almost at the door) then take the NCLEX. Sorry but I am one of those ethusiastic "I Love nursing" students :redbeathe I have a passion for caring. And I don't expect you to have the same, but....
I do however think you should stay away from bedside nursing. I didn't like in the further post when you said, "who wants to clean up poo". People have this mentality that that is all that nurses do, clean up after s***!
We are to be #1 most of all, patient advocates! Our duty is to provide the best care to our patients. Nursing takes compassion and care. Many other posters have said they have come to nursing cause they were bored, but they still had a feeling of caring and they have grown into the field. OP, you still haven't found that desire.
You stated that you hate nursing. That is a very strong word. It won't be fair to you, your co-workers and most importantly the patients, to have someone around that hates their job. It will show off in your skills and make you miserable and you will bring that home. I don't think it is fair for anyone to be involved in something they hate. Why do that to yourself? Please don't!
That being said, there is so many other fields to go into with your nursing license. I feel the main problem is that you have something deeper within that is troubling you and that you just haven't seen the other places you can go with your license. You don't have to be stuck "cleaning poo". NS lacks to show us the other doors because they are focused on us passing NCLEX.
There has to be at least one reason why you choose nursing. I really think there is one. Find it and let it grow. http://www.discovernursing.com
Best of Luck.. I hope you find the path that makes you happy!
I don't really think there's anything wrong with hating something.. I have been an ICU nurse for couple years and I have many many small things I can brag about given to me by family members of patients and my fellow nurses.My personality sort of "covers" for my hatred for nursing. Don't get me wrong. When I graduated, I thought nursing was good but after getting on the floor and facing alot of animosity from coworkers that was it. I decided there and then I would not die doing nursing....well truth is I'm in pharmacy school right now and will graduate soon.I still work as a nurse and unfortunately the negativity and also "old nurses eat the young" made me do a career switch.I think God planned it that I would end up in a good hospital with a bad group of nurses and that in turn would shape me to be what I am today... I've never regretted my decision to this day... Good luck @ author of the thread....
I am so sorrry that you have had this experience - "old nurses eat young nurses" - I also had it to a very small degree, which is why I now purposelfully try to encourage and support nursing students who have clinical experience with the aged care facility I work in. We need to be caring and kind to each other - really in every field that people work, but mostly in nursing because it is such an emotionally draining job. I hope that you enjoy pharmacy work - we have a fabulous pharmacist who does our reviews, and I learn a lot from him when we discuss meds the residents take. Being part of a multidisciplinary team is excellent.
Perhaps I'm looking for depth that isnt there, but when I feel trapped into something I start to detest having to do it. If I felt that I had no choice but to do something that I was unsure about, I would end up hating it. I'm lucky that my husband supports me enough that I know I could do whatever I want and he would support me and be happy that I am happy. (not that my family is not sacrificing now so that we can be better off financially once school is over)
I'm just saying that maybe the fact that your family is pressuring you influences your feelings. I too feel things strongly, sometimes like I *hate* something when in reality what I hate is feeling trapped into doing it, not the actual thing itself, but its hard to see it all clearly when up to my elbows in the problem itself. There are things that I really dislike about nursing school and various aspects of nursing.... a LOT. If I had to do them every day I would not go into nursing. Thankfully I know the vast variety available so I don't feel as though I would be forced to do those things, as long as I am patient and don't need to take the first job that comes my way.
What state are you residing in, that will allow you to take the exam now after 23 years without going back to school? In Georgia you have three years to pass the exam after graduation, or you have a lot of other requirements before just taking the exam whenever? Just curious as to how you are taking the exam again after so many years?
"It's not like I don't already have a BSN from another university" I'm responding to this comment you made. If you already have your BSN (Bachelor of Science in Nursing), why are you in an ADN program? Do you mean you have a bachelor's in another field? It's to bad that you hate it, maybe you really haven't given it a chance. I agree with some of the others that you should graduate, take the NCLEX, find a job in an area that you are interested in and give it a chance. You just never know you may just change your mind.
"It's not like I don't already have a BSN from another university" I'm responding to this comment you made. If you already have your BSN (Bachelor of Science in Nursing), why are you in an ADN program? Do you mean you have a bachelor's in another field? It's to bad that you hate it, maybe you really haven't given it a chance. I agree with some of the others that you should graduate, take the NCLEX, find a job in an area that you are interested in and give it a chance. You just never know you may just change your mind.
The OP actually made another post stating that this was an mis-type...
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I started an ADN nursing program over a year ago and graduate in May. I have the highest average in class, and I really seem to be doing well. However; I hate everything nursing, I really only started the program because I was bored, and now I feel to far invested to quite. I have to keep telling myself that this is a great job, but in reallity this job holds a lot of responsibility, "crappy responsibility." In addition I feel tremendous pressure from my family, my husband, and my husbands family to finish and work. It's not like I don't already have a BSN from another university, and my husband makes an excellent salary, I don't have to work. I keep hoping that all the pretentious people in class with their over enthusiastic "I love nursing" attitude will be non-existent in the workplace. This is me just venting, but if you have any productive advice or have felt this way I would love a response. However; if you are just wanting to tell me how terrible I am, please keep it to yourself.
:smokin:Calio advice is much on target.sometimes we start something of which at that time was the right thing to do ...only to find out later on , that it is not your calling. If you are that far, then finish it, and get the license....you will never know when you need that license. You are fortunate that you have an able husband to support you....but life is full of surprises! finish , get licensed and get current .....it will be a good "savings" incase you need it. for the meantime enjoy the good fortune and enjoy of not having to work at this phase of your life......but you are too close to just let it go now....so just lump it up and finish as an ADN or BSN. It si good to have it, whether you want to use it or not.
I hope you decide to finish and see whats out there. There are many different types of jobs out there that require a nurse and not all of them are direct patient contact.
Although you don't have to work now because your husband makes enough, please don't believe that will last forever. I've never been legally married, but have been with my man for 14 years. Just a couple of months ago, I was told he had been seeing someone else for the last few years. I confronted him and found it to be true. I had no idea. Honestly, none! He wants to work things out, but I can't bare to look at him let alone work anything out. I too believed that I didn't need to work because he makes enough. Now, I'm looking at life with our two children much differently. Thank God I graduate in May and can make it on my own.
I have been an LPN for the past 26yr and an RN for...well since May. When I first started nursing, I loved it. Ate drank and slept it. I have always worked for the state or county, unionized, which can be very good or very, very bad. Reading some of the posts I realize that my passion for the profession is gone. Not because of the job and the patients but because of the crap you deal with on a day to day basis. Uncaring managers, holier than thou know it all nurses...you know the ones that come to work to be involved with their friends more than the patients. There are alot of good nurses out there and a lot of good places to work. Just seem to be so hard to find. A few examples of the things I've had to deal with as a "newbie". An aide yelled at me in the hall after I had asked her two hrs previously to get a gentleman up out of bed.(family Request). "I know MY job and I'll get to it when I get to it. I am not in the habit of having nurses tell me what to do! My nurse managers response when I went to her after being called on the carpet by another nurse who told me to leave the aides alone, they know their job. "Everyone of our aides here are very good. They all could be nurses only they don't have the license." I was spoken to the other day for calling an aide Maurice. That is what his name tag reads. He says his name is Morris. It is the petty crap that gets to me.
I have been an LPN for the past 26yr and an RN for...well since May. When I first started nursing, I loved it. Ate drank and slept it. I have always worked for the state or county, unionized, which can be very good or very, very bad. Reading some of the posts I realize that my passion for the profession is gone. Not because of the job and the patients but because of the crap you deal with on a day to day basis. Uncaring managers, holier than thou know it all nurses...you know the ones that come to work to be involved with their friends more than the patients. There are alot of good nurses out there and a lot of good places to work. Just seem to be so hard to find. A few examples of the things I've had to deal with as a "newbie". An aide yelled at me in the hall after I had asked her two hrs previously to get a gentleman up out of bed.(family Request). "I know MY job and I'll get to it when I get to it. I am not in the habit of having nurses tell me what to do! My nurse managers response when I went to her after being called on the carpet by another nurse who told me to leave the aides alone, they know their job. "Everyone of our aides here are very good. They all could be nurses only they don't have the license." I was spoken to the other day for calling an aide Maurice. That is what his name tag reads. He says his name is Morris. It is the petty crap that gets to me.
I take it that you are new at that facility and inspite of having been an LPN many years, you are still a new RN. You are just going through the crap that the rest of us have to go through which seems to be pretty universal. I think it is harder on some of us to deal with this type of "initiation" period than it is others.
It may even be harder on some of us older folks who are experienced either as CNA's, LPN's or in other professions prior to becoming RN's. We have developed a certain self-concept that comes with longevity in any field and when we enter as novices into a profession where some members are extremely inhospitable even hostile to novices we are in a postion which causes us some "cognitive disonance." We also have to struggle with the steep learning curve that is inherent to nursing. This part might be a bit easier for you as an experience LPN than it was/is for me as a Social Worker, but it is there never the less. I just hope you want let yourself get too discouraged.
Besides flesh hungry nurses, aides here have treated me like crap also, and one egotistical nurse had the gall to tell me to "be good to my aides." I suppose she meant that being new, I shouldn't bother to ask the aides to do their job and certainly not to delegate any tasks. I get along with most of the aides really well, but one of them is still a pain in the patootie! There were two that were really bad, but one was fired. I have reported the one that gives me a problem, twice. Fortunately my charge has backed me up both times, but this kid just doesn't seem to think that she is supposed to help me or any of the other newer nurses with little things like cleaning poo or giving baths, and for heavens sake don't ask her to take an extra set of vitals!
I actually do not trust her to take my patients blood sugars though we are supposed to be able to delegate that to the aide. I wouldn't want to give insulin based on her report because she is such a liar she might just make up a number. I usually take my own anyway, but if I am behind I will sometimes ask the aide to do it, but not this one.
Whatever!!!!! I am about over the B.S. and there is no way they will make me leave, LOL!
You did not choose nursing. Nursing chose you because truly it is a Calling. If I did not believe that I would have been out a long time ago. 99% of the time I wonder what the hell I am doing here but It is that 1% when a patient says thank you that is really worth it and I know so when a tear drop falls from my eye and I have to go hide for fear of losing my macho status.
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I am about over the B.S. and there is no way they will make me leave, LOL!
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. As others have stated, I think you should finish the program (since you're almost at the door) then take the NCLEX. Sorry but I am one of those ethusiastic "I Love nursing" students :redbeathe I have a passion for caring. And I don't expect you to have the same, but....
I do however think you should stay away from bedside nursing. I didn't like in the further post when you said, "who wants to clean up poo". People have this mentality that that is all that nurses do, clean up after s***!
We are to be #1 most of all, patient advocates! Our duty is to provide the best care to our patients. Nursing takes compassion and care. Many other posters have said they have come to nursing cause they were bored, but they still had a feeling of caring and they have grown into the field. OP, you still haven't found that desire.
You stated that you hate nursing. That is a very strong word. It won't be fair to you, your co-workers and most importantly the patients, to have someone around that hates their job. It will show off in your skills and make you miserable and you will bring that home. I don't think it is fair for anyone to be involved in something they hate. Why do that to yourself? Please don't!
That being said, there is so many other fields to go into with your nursing license. I feel the main problem is that you have something deeper within that is troubling you and that you just haven't seen the other places you can go with your license. You don't have to be stuck "cleaning poo". NS lacks to show us the other doors because they are focused on us passing NCLEX.
There has to be at least one reason why you choose nursing. I really think there is one. Find it and let it grow. http://www.discovernursing.com
Best of Luck.. I hope you find the path that makes you happy!