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Hi:crying2:, I'm new to this site and a prospecting nursing student with issuses to write a novel! I go to CSI on Staten Island and wished I'd never came to this chinky school. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart! (met a couple a of great friends here but the rest are so backwards) Now I need some advice because I'm at my breaking point and on the edge of a nervous breakdown. I feel this is the only place I can get answers where the nursing dept. anwser to everything is "GO TO THE SCHOOL WEBSITE, WE CAN'T ANSWER YOUR QUESTIONS", pitiful i know. Whats the point for a nursing dept if every question a student has is on the website, they act so superior and demeaning to the students:angryfire! Now I'm not the greatest student out there and might be the worst if not! My gpa sucks big time, really really big...its in the low 2 and this semester might bring it up by one point. Not even a big deal. My mom is paying for my tuition and i feel like i let her down big time; not only that, I hate my grades and I'm a shameful daughter who cant get her act together:o.

Issues 1:sniff:: I sent my application to Mount Saint Vincent and I called them to confrim if they recieved it. They said its probably in the mail today since it was sent on the 8th of may. Now my issue is that thier school wants 3.0 gpa for the Nursing program which I'm no where near at the is point, however on the application i check undecided major just to get into thier school but my essay states that I am interested in the nursing field. Do you think this was a good idea? The whole thing is that I don't want to spend another agonizing semester at CSI but I'm afraid that i might. What do you think?

Issuse 2:angryfire: I sent an application to College of New Rochelle, called them just the same as CMSV, and they said they got the application however because the deadline was May 8th and recieved it today, that they were going to push my prospecting entry for the fall of 2010! I was so upset to hear that I wanted to cry...*:sniff:held back tears:sniff:* Just thinking about it right now makes me want cry! Although, i did put down nursing as a major and pre-health major just to be safe! But what I want to know is what do I from here? I already wasted 2 1/2 semesters over at CSI and right now I'm rolling on three years ....so what do I do from here? *sniff sniff*

issues 3:confused:: The last school I applied was Maria College of Albany, however I don't really know anything about this school. I got all my information from their website and over here. Is this a good school for pre-nursing students who haven't done LPN but would rather go straight for the RN?

I've tried and nothing seems to work. I've done most of the gerenal pre-requistes that my school or other schools wants but I had two slip-ups in my third semester and been struggling since to recover. I feel so depress about this situation and my school isn't even encouraging me to even try an apply to their program. There's always a run around with them, the nursing dept. act to superior and demeanig that you can't even talk to them. And I feel guilty evertime my mom talks about me getting into the program, its like she's paying for my tuition and I'm not making the best of it. I know she's iching to retire but she can't because I'm not done with school. If only i were in the program she could do so but .....*sign* ....I dont know what to do anymore....I don't want to give up but its like my dream of becoming a nurse is becoming dimmer and dimmer. The light at the end my the tunnel is fading quickly and i feel so lost in the dark! I just want to die! People please help me out, what should I do?

Heyy, firstly, just take a deep breath and calm down. Worrying, crying, or being angry is not going to help anything. It does take some people a lot of effort to get what they want, and if you are dedicated enough-- you will succeed-- it may not be this year, or next year, or the year after that.. but if you work hard enough, you'll get what you deserve.

I started a BSN nursing program straight out of high school and stupidly decided to withdraw because I didn't like the college AT ALL. (Now I'm seeing if I just stuck it out I'd be graduating this year with my BSN rather than starting in the fall towards a ASN! Frustrating!) After I withdrew I struggled a bit with my grades, I was really inconsistant, having maybe 2 F's and 2 A's each semester. How do you get into nursing school with F's? You take the course again. If you don't do as well as you need to, there is no shame in trying again. Most colleges will eliminate the F from your GPA (it will still be on your transcript, just not factored into the GPA), so your GPA will rise-- and the school you're applying to will see that you are trying hard, and really evolving into a better student.

You have so many options. No one wants you to fail, but you need to believe in yourself and do whatever it takes-- even if that means waiting! It took me from 2005 til now to get back into a program, with some pretty awful grades.. but it's doable. I believe in you (: If nursing is what you truly want-- if you live, breathe, dream about becoming a nurse-- it doesn't matter how long it takes you to become one-- it matters that its what you get eventually! Just remember that.

Sorry this is so long, but mainly, GOOD LUCK!

Oh, dreamer, it's okay.

Before you do anything, you should contact your doctor about what is clearly some depression. You need help to climb out of this. Feeling worthless is not normal, honey.

Secondly, I know CSI - grew up in Staten Island. It is HUGE now, and you aren't going to get a small campus feel there.

Maria College does clinicals at St Peter's in Albany. The reputation is eh, but really, if you're struggling with grades you don't need Johns Hopkisn anyway.

Step back. Breathe. Give yourself a big hug, and tell yourself that you are a worthwhile, good person even if your grades do stink.

And talk to your doctor.

{{{Dreamer}}}

ParkerBC,MSN,RN, PhD, RN

Specializes in Medical Surgical/Addiction/Mental Health.

i hate reading posts on this site where a person feels really discouraged over the process of getting into nursing school. it is a competitive and challenging program. you mentioned your gpa is a 2.0. are all of your grades c’s or have you had some d’s and f’s? a very quick way to bring up your gpa is retaking courses you didn’t perform well in. another advantage you have is that you have already been exposed to the subject matter content. therefore, the likelihood of you doing well in those courses is good. a word of caution, this will only work if you retake the courses at the school you originally took them. i would also consider retaking courses you received a c in.

almost every state program has some sort of wait in order to get into the nursing program. private schools tend to have available seating and don’t required prerequisites to get started. the costs are significantly more. where i go to school, there is a point system based upon prerequisites and the teas exam. for the rn program, most every student applying has a 4.0 in their prerequisites and a mid 80’s as their teas score. the lpn program is a little different. students are accepted with lower gpa’s and test scores. this should not suggest that lpn students as a whole aren’t academically equal to the rn students. the reason i mentioned this option is because there are many programs that offer lpn/lvn to bsn or rn without the wait.

here is a website to see the different schools in your state http://www.op.nysed.gov/nurseprogs.htm check out all of the programs to see what their requirements are and see which program is the best match for you. schools to me are like people, they have their own personalities and sometimes personalities just clash. don’t give up. this experience will only make you stronger and more resilient.

good luck to you.

:crying2: Thanks you guys...I'm just in the mud right now and can't help be feel down. My gpa is really 2.2 *roll eyes* (doesn't make me look any better) I appreciate the encouragement dearly! >,

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Dreamer, have you ever examined WHY your grades are so low? You seem like you are experiencing depression, and that can have a major detrimental effect on your grades.. (That's why mine were so low) I agree with the others that maybe you should see a doctor. With some meds and a few sessions with a therapist, I'm feeling my best.. and getting better grades (all A's!).. could be just what you need-- ask your doctor.

I don't know how old you are, but if you're 21 then of course your mom can retire - (that is if the only reason she's not retiring is your schooling).

Here's how a lot of people who want to pay their own way through school do it: Get your CNA license and get a job in a hospital or other health care facility. Then find a part time lpn program. You won't need many prereqs to get in so your prereq grades won't be as big of an issue right away. After you get your lpn you can work as a nurse while working on your lpn to rn or bsn and so forth. A lot of hospitals and other facilities will give you tuition reimbursement that covers all or part of the cost of your tuition in return for a few years of service. So you are basically earning your tuition through your labor which is a nice deal if you can get it.

I'm not judging at all, so don't take this the wrong way but maybe if you were paying out of pocket you'd feel better about yourself and more accomplished - your self esteem will be so much higher. And the other thing is you might be more motivated to get better grades. I know these days I personally hate paying for a C grade - but that's because I pay out of pocket. When I was young, and not paying out of pocket I wasn't anywhere near as motivated.

Don't take this the wrong way but are you even sure that this is what you really want to do in life? Or are you just getting pressure from your mom? If it is your dream in life to become a nurse then you need to give yourself a swift kick in the butt. I know that you have hit some rough patches but how hard have you really been working on this? Have you put every ounce of effort into every class? If not, you need to figure out why. And if you have been working really hard and you are still pulling low(er) grades then you need to fix your study habits. There is no reason why you shouldn't have a 3.0 or higher. Unless of course you are experiencing depression, because that can impair your ability to reach your full potential.

No matter what I hope you feel better, soon! I know school can be very tough and discouraging at time but you have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and take those classes over for better grades. It sounds like your mom is down on you and that sounds terrible, you might want to have a talk with her and let her know that you need more support and encouragement, maybe a family counselor can help.

Okay, what I'm about to say MAY sound realllly ugly, but here goes it, SUCK IT UP!!!!!!!!!!!! You have had your pity party now get back to WORK!!!!! Believe me, I have been there... When I went back to school I had like a 1.2. REALLY. The advisor looked at me like I was a joke. She smiled and said I would be but on probation and that if I didnt get my grades up, I couldn't attend the following semester. UGH!!! Then to top it off I had to take like 4 remedial maths before algebra that didn't even count.I had to get instructors to sign a probation sheet weekly to turn in to my advisor (EMBARRESSED). That was 3 years ago. In that time I HAVE BUSTED MY ASS. Sure I have stumbled, in that time had to retake some classes even had a nervous breakdown and depression that followed. Everytime I wanted to quit or said the hell with this, their was someone there that said NONONONONONONONO!!!!!!!! Keep going. I kept my head in the books and before I knew it I was finished and accepted the first time around into Nursing school. Now my advisor and I are great friends and she wrote me a SHINING letter of recommendation that almost brought me to tears. She said that she recalled the first day I walked in and about my grades and probation and how she thought I wasn't cut out for college and that I proved her wrong several times over and that she was so proud. You need a support system in your life, friends, family classmates, this site whatever. Someone who will give it to you straight and not take your whiney crap. You can do this. Talk to your mom ( real talk) and tell her whats going on, don't keep her in the dark, she wants you to succeed, your not letting her down, your LEARNING, its not automatic success.

Also,

Hit the wrong key, sorry wasn't finished. Anyway, time. Time, time, time. Everybody is so concerned about time and I was too. Time is going to pass whether or not ur in school, so make it count. Write down goals, short and long and take it one step at a time. Don't overwhelm yourself. Concentrate on your classes, retake the one's you need to retake and push on. Pick yourself up sweetie, whether you decide to become a nurse or not just commit to finishing school, whatever you decide to do.

Okay, what I'm about to say MAY sound realllly ugly, but here goes it, SUCK IT UP!!!!!!!!!!!! You have had your pity party now get back to WORK!!!!! Believe me, I have been there... When I went back to school I had like a 1.2. REALLY. The advisor looked at me like I was a joke. She smiled and said I would be but on probation and that if I didnt get my grades up, I couldn't attend the following semester. UGH!!! Then to top it off I had to take like 4 remedial maths before algebra that didn't even count.I had to get instructors to sign a probation sheet weekly to turn in to my advisor (EMBARRESSED). That was 3 years ago. In that time I HAVE BUSTED MY ASS. Sure I have stumbled, in that time had to retake some classes even had a nervous breakdown and depression that followed. Everytime I wanted to quit or said the hell with this, their was someone there that said NONONONONONONONO!!!!!!!! Keep going. I kept my head in the books and before I knew it I was finished and accepted the first time around into Nursing school. Now my advisor and I are great friends and she wrote me a SHINING letter of recommendation that almost brought me to tears. She said that she recalled the first day I walked in and about my grades and probation and how she thought I wasn't cut out for college and that I proved her wrong several times over and that she was so proud. You need a support system in your life, friends, family classmates, this site whatever. Someone who will give it to you straight and not take your whiney crap. You can do this. Talk to your mom ( real talk) and tell her whats going on, don't keep her in the dark, she wants you to succeed, your not letting her down, your LEARNING, its not automatic success.

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:yeah:If all you said were true story of yours, I became a total admirer to you~

for me, my lowest GPA is like 1.7 in college :o just as I was about to drop out, I had an opportunity talk to my grade advisor. She gave me light. I tried really hard to bring my GPA overall to 2.3

Like other students, I am applying for fall 2011 entry to CSI nursing program. First of all, I don't hold any hopes to get in that program on first shot, it's not going to happen~anyway, I am preparing my self for the worst outcome. Then, I'm thinking about finishing taking all pre-reqs there, since it's cheaper than other colleges around. After I bring my GPA to maybe a 3.0 I'm thinking about transfer out or apply to other nursing programs out there. I don't believe GPA is the only concern when they make decisions, but it sure take a lot percentage to a count.

I am just in the same shoe as someone else, but I don't want to give up and say that this is it! if I can't get in I can't! Be confident with yourself, school grades is only part of your life, and don't cry if things don't work out, because crying won't do you any good! Also, be truthful to people that care about you, you should talk to your mom and let her know about your feelings!

Now, we both have a long ladder to climb, but as long as we follow the route, we won't get lost! so wipe those tears and starts reading those books!

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