How quickly we forget

[lemonaidangel]

Today as I was sitting in the hallway during our lunch break, cramming for my med surg test that was going to be taking place in less than 30 minutes, I could not help but overhearing the conversations of the group of freshmen a few feet away. They were cramming for pharm, and very anxiously awaiting the grades from a principles test. Some were crying even, and all of them were so stressed out it made me want to pull my hair out along with them. The girls were so pale and tired from lack of sleep. Comment were flying amongst them like, "Oh. My. Word. I had no idea nursing school would be this hard!" "This is crazy, who writes tests like this?" "I know for sure and certain I am going to fail. I completely bombed our last test, I know it." "These teachers are a bunch of quacks. I hate this place." "How in the world am I supposed to learn all of this stuff?"

At first I caught myself smiling inwardly, Aww, look at the cute freshman worrying about pharm. I am so glad I am not one of them anymore. But then midway between flipping a page of my notes and stuffing a bite of salad into my mouth, it hit me how condensending I must have seemed to them. My goodness, it was not so long ago that I was in their place. I thought those same thoughts, felt those same things. I came home crying almost every day from exaustion, I freaked out over every little thing, and I just knew in my heart that I was going to fail out because I got a 79 instead of an 80. Nursings tests were once the hardest things in the world to me, head-to-toe assessments and careplans were like speaking a new language. The site of a blood pressure cuff used to make me quake. I rememember being so stressed because finals were in four months! I would never be ready!

Somewhere, somehow, between my first semester and my senior year, things got easier. I fell into my own comfortable routine. NCLEX tests don't freak me out anymore, I have my own studying techniques that work for me, I can take care of more than one patient without feeling like I am going to kill anyone just by looking at them the wrong way. The instructors know me by name when I pass them in the hall and I can say hello without wondering if they are conspiring against me. I sleep better now. I guess I can't say that my senior year is easy, it's far from it, but it is...better. I guess I kind of forgot what it was like to be brand spanking new to all of this. I wish I could take each and every one of these first semester student by the hand and teach them all of my tricks, and somehow convince them that it will get better eventually.

How could I forget so soon? It's kind of a humbling experience.

I used to wonder why nurses can be so unsympathetic toward students. I would think things like, You used to be a student! You have been through this, you had to write care plans, you know the stress of nursing school. You should remember what it's like to shake in your boots over hanging your first bag of normal saline. Don't laugh at me, please. Give me a little bit of slack. I'm not perfect like you. And then today I realized that I was becoming one of them...and I'm not even done with school yet! I am so ashamed of myself. If it is so easy to slip into acting superior over freshmen because I know more than them as a senior, how much easier to you thinkit will be to be like that when after I graduate and have my RN under my belt.

I don't want to be one of those nurses. I want to be the nice one the students feel they can come to for anything and I won't laugh at them for asking a seemingly stupid question. Even when I am busy, I want to be the one that takes time out to give a little hint on giving insulin or give a word of encouragement.

So, to those new students that I pass in the hall every day, I would like to apologize. If I seem arrogant or like a know-it-all or am condensending, I don't mean to be. I am just SO happy that I'm not in your shoes anymore! It's a hard to describe the feeling without sounding superior. You are right. The first semester at our school is known to be as hard as heck for a reason...because it IS hard as heck. The tests ARE terrifying and overwhelming. They DO pound information into your brain until your hippocampus feels bruised. Your first head-to-to assessment check off IS something to be nervous about. Pharmacology is a crazy hard class. You don't sleep, you don't eat, you don't have a life. You work hard for every single grade you get. You guys are amazing. If you can make it through this semester, you can do anything. I tip my hat off to you. If there is any way at all that I can help, or if you need a shoulder to cry on, don't hesitate to ask. Remmber to breathe. You can do this! You can make it to your last year too!

Please, don't ever let me forget my first semester.

[gabass]

Awesome post! I am a newbie to nursing. We have 2 nursing buildings on our campus. The first year sudents are in a seperate building for lecture, but our skills lab is in the second year building. I really hate going to that building because I feel like someone may kidnap me or eat me for lunch...LOL

We all have a common goal. Us "newbies" are just completely freaked out rather than somewhat freaked out....

[pharmgirl]

Awesome post!

[Valerie Salva, BSN, RN]

Great post. You should submit it to the Articles and Tutorials section.

[pinkiepie_RN]

Today as I was sitting in the hallway during our lunch break, cramming for my med surg test that was going to be taking place in less than 30 minutes, I could not help but overhearing the conversations of the group of freshmen a few feet away. They were cramming for pharm, and very anxiously awaiting the grades from a principles test. Some were crying even, and all of them were so stressed out it made me want to pull my hair out along with them. The girls were so pale and tired from lack of sleep. Comment were flying amongst them like, "Oh. My. Word. I had no idea nursing school would be this hard!" "This is crazy, who writes tests like this?" "I know for sure and certain I am going to fail. I completely bombed our last test, I know it." "These teachers are a bunch of quacks. I hate this place." "How in the world am I supposed to learn all of this stuff?"

At first I caught myself smiling inwardly, Aww, look at the cute freshman worrying about pharm. I am so glad I am not one of them anymore. But then midway between flipping a page of my notes and stuffing a bite of salad into my mouth, it hit me how condensending I must have seemed to them. My goodness, it was not so long ago that I was in their place. I thought those same thoughts, felt those same things. I came home crying almost every day from exaustion, I freaked out over every little thing, and I just knew in my heart that I was going to fail out because I got a 79 instead of an 80. Nursings tests were once the hardest things in the world to me, head-to-toe assessments and careplans were like speaking a new language. The site of a blood pressure cuff used to make me quake. I rememember being so stressed because finals were in four months! I would never be ready!

Somewhere, somehow, between my first semester and my senior year, things got easier. I fell into my own comfortable routine. NCLEX tests don't freak me out anymore, I have my own studying techniques that work for me, I can take care of more than one patient without feeling like I am going to kill anyone just by looking at them the wrong way. The instructors know me by name when I pass them in the hall and I can say hello without wondering if they are conspiring against me. I sleep better now. I guess I can't say that my senior year is easy, it's far from it, but it is...better. I guess I kind of forgot what it was like to be brand spanking new to all of this. I wish I could take each and every one of these first semester student by the hand and teach them all of my tricks, and somehow convince them that it will get better eventually.

How could I forget so soon? It's kind of a humbling experience.

I used to wonder why nurses can be so unsympathetic toward students. I would think things like, You used to be a student! You have been through this, you had to write care plans, you know the stress of nursing school. You should remember what it's like to shake in your boots over hanging your first bag of normal saline. Don't laugh at me, please. Give me a little bit of slack. I'm not perfect like you. And then today I realized that I was becoming one of them...and I'm not even done with school yet! I am so ashamed of myself. If it is so easy to slip into acting superior over freshmen because I know more than them as a senior, how much easier to you thinkit will be to be like that when after I graduate and have my RN under my belt.

I don't want to be one of those nurses. I want to be the nice one the students feel they can come to for anything and I won't laugh at them for asking a seemingly stupid question. Even when I am busy, I want to be the one that takes time out to give a little hint on giving insulin or give a word of encouragement.

So, to those new students that I pass in the hall every day, I would like to apologize. If I seem arrogant or like a know-it-all or am condensending, I don't mean to be. I am just SO happy that I'm not in your shoes anymore! It's a hard to describe the feeling without sounding superior. You are right. The first semester at our school is known to be as hard as heck for a reason...because it IS hard as heck. The tests ARE terrifying and overwhelming. They DO pound information into your brain until your hippocampus feels bruised. Your first head-to-to assessment check off IS something to be nervous about. Pharmacology is a crazy hard class. You don't sleep, you don't eat, you don't have a life. You work hard for every single grade you get. You guys are amazing. If you can make it through this semester, you can do anything. I tip my hat off to you. If there is any way at all that I can help, or if you need a shoulder to cry on, don't hesitate to ask. Remmber to breathe. You can do this! You can make it to your last year too!

Please, don't ever let me forget my first semester.

I too am a senior and I find myself totally relating to what you have to say. Juniors come through where I work and they're scared out of their minds! Apparently at least 5 people failed junior year, second semester and they're all afraid that Med-Surg really is the devil! I tell them, "Look, I know a friend that got an "A" and I got a "B" in Med-Surg. It really can be done. It's not the end of the world, and don't spend your whole life studying. Study smarter, not harder and ask for help if you need it. Your instructors are there to help you and use all the resources you can get your hands on. Get an NCLEX-RN review book and use it. Don't go crazy trying to memorize lab values; they'll come with time. Know what you need to know! And seriously, Med-Surg is really not that bad; it's just alot of work. There's a case study project that you'll probably do really well on and it'll boost your grade if you can at least keep your head above water and not be overwhelmed. Use the fact that OB is a little easier to your advantage. I'm not proud of it, but I passed and got a "B" in OB without putting half as much effort into it as I did for Med-Surg. I had my grade where I wanted it before going into the final exam and knew what I needed to get to receive the grade I wanted."

[lemonaidangel]

Thanks for actually reading the whole thing. I didn't mean for it to be that long. I was just typing whatever came to my head, not even bothering to check spelling or grammar.

I took your advice, I cleaned it up a little and submitted it to the articles section. Thank you again for suggesting it.

[redtshirt]

I really liked your post. Last year i was a third year and worked with first years more so to get bedbaths etc done, they were so in awe of the third year students. At times id get annoyed because each and every bed had to be made meticulously even though i'd have a load of other things to be doing. Then i remember them saying ooh are you doing such and such a thing can i watch. By the end of my time one of the first years emailed me saying thank you. She had toyed with the idea of quitting nursing just because some of the nurses were not friendly or ignored her or wouldnt teach her. She thanked me for showing her different things i was doing. I didnt realise how much it meant to her at the time to me it was just a task to be done but to her it was more. I also forgot how young and niave i was when i started nursing and how timid i was too. Nursing has transformed me. (hopefully to a better person!)

[gillytook]

That was a great post. Thank you. May we all be the kind of nurse that you are striving to be.

[Do-over, ASN, RN]

Thanks, reading your post made me feel a lot less alone in the first-year-nursing-school world!

[~MIA~, ASN, RN]

AMEN Sista!!!

[pooshx2]

BUMP!

Awesome post, I graduate in December and really needed to read this as I too am feeling ashamed as I saw some "newbies" the other day and thought, thank goodness I am done with that.

[thatsforreal]

Your post was awesome, as I to am a new nursing student and feel at times the pressure of studying or just wondering if you past a test. I would like to have you opinion on a good study habit and how to use your critical thinking when it comes to taking these nursing test. God bless and keep on keeping on!