I've been in the hospital in a CCU, CVICU, and have been a transport nurse (on an ambulance) for 10 years.
I've really enjoyed the 'nerdy' aspect of critical care, but I feel especially connected on a more spiritual/human level with hospice patients and families, which I think speaks to me more. Ultimately to me, the reality of dying is the moment of all truth- an opportunity for a death bed and reflection of your relationships.
One of the things I don't like about my job (I think nursing can say this generally), is I'm annoyed with trying to make people live that should be allowed to say good-bye. I see the view of death as something feared and scary. I feel like I want to do my part in changing it.
For whatever reason, I feel comfortable (and privileged) to be a part of someone's world when they are in a crisis. Critical care has definitely given me a sometimes salty and gritty view of things and the state of the human race sometimes
but I don't get this way with the dying.
I want the opinion and view of people that left critical care to do hospice. What made you like it more/less? Did you have friends that challenged the choice of hospice, as if you were "downgrading" the value of your nursing care you provide? (My husband, an ICU nurse, says, "Ew, why would you want to do that?")
I've only dealt with hospice through transporting them home or to hospice facilities (as well as caring for them in the hospital).
Any words of advice? Did you get bored? Feel more fulfilled in your job (perhaps you felt your purpose in life was this, and feel content)?
I work a ton of hours in transport and haven't picked up in the hospital in almost six months (per diem). The thought of going there turns my stomach. I'm thinking of just axing that altogether.
Sorry for the wordiness, but I don't know hospice nurses and I want your input please. I've been thinking about this for about 2 years and now I'm burning with it practically.