I'm really in need of some advice of people that have maybe been in my situation before... so here's the story..
I'm 26, I've been an RN since the summer of 2013. After I graduated I moved to Florida from the Midwest and started a night shift job in oncology. The unit was tele/med surg/neuro/chemo. It was a teaching hospital....yes I felt stupid at times when I was newer, but overall got a good bit more comfortable with time. I eventually was charge nurse. I learned a ton there. But everntally moved home because I wanted to be closer to family.
So my next goal was getting into critical care. I'm still very unsure of what type of nursing I'd like to do long term so I figured this would either be a great stepping stone, or something I'd like to stick with.
Well it's another night shift job... which I hate... but still thought it'd be a good plan. I started had 3 months of orientation.. and still feel awful. This month marks my month 5. It's not that I feel like my assessment skills are bad... or my patients are unsafe under my care... I just feel dumb constantly. To the point I've cried in the back at work and cry on my way home. I get scolded by doctors and nurses daily. Bottom line, I'm afraid I hate it. Absolutely hate my job. I feel terrible saying this but I want nothing more than to quit. No one seems to have respect for anyone there. No matter what I do or say it never seems right.
Its really taking a toll on me..on my confidence and my overall well being...I feel like a failure because I'm used to being good at what I do.. some people (nursing friends from old job) are telling me stick it out for 1 year. My boyfriend of years hates it, wants me to quit so badly because I'm always so upset.
I know I'm the only one that can make this decision and the only one who knows what's best for me, but I'd like some opinions on what I should do?
Bottom line im very unhappy there, but feel like it's best to stay and learn more..
