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I don't post here much, but I was just wondering if anyone has gone through what I'm currently going through.
I missed 4 clinical days (3 days on the hospital floor, 1 day of OR observation) due to severe anxiety attacks. I've had them for a few yrs now - they've been manageable, I see a dr about them; but they've never this bad.
My instructors say it is now too late in the semester for anything to be done (translation: "you fail clinical"). So, thanks to my stupid panic attacks and inflexibility of the nursing administration at my school, not only do I get an F in clinical but it is also their policy that I will receive an F in theory, as well - even though my average is in the high 80's to low 90's. Due to F's in both clinical and theory (although I don't believe the F in theory is a "real F") It is the school's policy that I am dismissed and may not repeat the course (one year from now) for credit.
I've written a letter to the dean (don't worry, I took out all the swears I had in there the first time I wrote it - haha). Seriously though, it's a professional sounding letter just stating my position and feeling that there was very little support for me or flexibility in how to make up my missed clinical days. Our instructors always said "We have to work with our patients due to their ever-changing conditions." Does that not apply to us as nursing students, as well???
Bottom line - the chairwoman of the nsg program has said that maybe nursing isn't for me (even though I loved every minute of it - the care plans
, endless reading, practicing skills in the lab). I'm wondering if I should believe her or just take this at face value and believe this happened for a reason and I wasn't meant to be in nursing. I can understand the chairwoman's viewpoint - god forbid I had a panic attack while caring for a patient!
My plan now is to begin classes at another college (4 yr, not 2 yr) for my Bio degree. I have a ton of electives & core courses done, so I really don't have that much more to go actually, which is nice.
Has anyone been in this situation where, due to the panic/anxiety attacks they were unable to pursue nursing?
Thanks everyone & again, sorry for this tremendously long post. I had alot to get off my chest!