I am a city person 100% even though I am from a rural area. I lived in a major city, 4 hours away from my hometown, until this past spring. I moved back home because I accepted a top-notch gov. job (still in nursing), but it was retracted after I moved back because of the budget. I put in numerous applications around here (my hometown) and in Chicago (the city I moved from and loved), but I got nothing, no calls, no hits - and I have 5 yrs experience. I couldn't get my old job back because the hospital policy states no rehires until after 1 year. Being stuck in this rut, I decided to go back to school and complete a BSN program that I started a few years ago. In hindsight, there was NO way I could have passed the accelerated BioChem last summer if I had a job, so in a way I think that all of this happened for a reason. I recently found a hospital job in the same town as my university and I love it.
Ok, here is my "big" calamity. I am going to be done with my BSN in a year. I LOVE this uni. And the great thing is, if I complete my BSN through them and rock a high GPA, I can get into their MSN program and not take the GRE. My current GPA is rockin', and they have a MSN program in clinical leadership, which is right up my alley. The MSN program is an accelerated 18 month program and I've heard rave reviews about it from my coworkers. So when I do the math, I can either get my BSN, and in a year I can move back to CHI and move on with life. I'll hopefully get my old job backm, and later I'm sure I'd try to get into a Chicago university for my MSN. With that said, I'll probably have to take the GRE and commute across town for classes in heavy traffic or on the el - yuck to both!
Option 2 - I can stay here for *almost* 3 more years and finish my MSN here.
The latter makes the most sense. But....I love the city and long to be back in a way. Oh, and, wouldn't you know, I am still in love with my ex boyfriend, and he is reclaimning his love for me again and can't wait for me to move back next year. Arrgh. Ok, Ok, he is the main reason I want to move back after my BSN. I am going on 32 years old, so my *clock* is starting to tick. It would be nice to move back, be content with the BSN, and settle down with him and put MSN on the backburner. BUT...there is a chance we won't work out, and then I'm sure I'll be kickin' myself. We broke up last winter because he was diagnosed with a severe case of hemochromotosis and he freaked out on me and a lot of people because his liver is pretty damaged from his 7500 iron level, and he is a social drinker, which probbaly hasn't helped. He simply wanted to be alone, I can't say that I blame him. He was getting phone call after phone call of bad news, he said he felt like he was going to drop dead soon and he didn't want to putme through that, hence, he dumped me.
We are back on, he is doing much better, and we are doing the LDR thing right now and it's working out OK, but he thinks I'm moving back in a year after I graduate, assuming that I can find a job (man, it's rough out there). I know him well, and I know he won't go for a LDR for 3 more years.
If I do stay here and finish the MSN at this uni, I will definetely move back to CHi when I'm done. and with a MSN, I will probably be able to find a nice job with many doors opening. But that is a LONG way off. It is the wisest thing to do, but at my age, settling down is pretty important, too. I just don't know what to do.
