Hard Decisions to Make....

[mchanrice]

Hello,

I have been coming to this website for the last year and a half. I was on the waiting listing for the LPN program in my area (FL) for over a year and a half. I finally got my seat in January 2006. After starting nursing school I found out from my mother's husband that she was being moved from the hospital to hospice. I was in total shock, my family knew how bad I wanted to get into nursing school and kept the fact that my mother was so sick. After learning that my mother was going to hospice, I decided to withdraw from the program. I knew my mother would be alone and didnt want her to die without someone being by her side. When I withdrew from from the LPN program I assumed I would be by my mother's side for a few months. Those few months ended up being 2 weeks. My mother's illness took her pretty fast.

I have been in total shock about my mother's death and have just not wanted to think about anything else. It is now time to reapply for the nursing program again. I have been going back and forth as to what to do. In my heart I know I want more than anything to be a nurse. But then on the other hand I am so afraid and not sure what to do. I don't want to pass up my chance to reapply to the program..

[jillyk*rn]

hi,

i'm so sorry about your mom:flowersfo . i know things can get all cloudy when you are engulfed in grief. think about you now.

if your plan was to go to school-reapply. if you decide later that it's not for you...you can drop out...but don't let going to school be one of those things you always wish you had done.

hugs to you!:icon_hug:

[HARRN2b]

My prayers are with you. This is such a difficult time in your life. It might possibly help you with your grief if you go ahead with your school. Especially if it something that your mom wanted you to do.

Hugs,

Holly

[Tweety, BSN, RN]

My sincere condolences.

I'm sure your mother wouldn't want you put your dreams on hold and she would be proud and honored if you went ahead and applied and put forth your best effort, knowing some days that's not going to be easy.

[Faeriewand, ASN, RN]

Hi Mchanrice. I was similarly devastated when I lost my parent while attending college. It was hard to keep going but I did. That type of new grief does dissipate over time however. Now I feel as if my dad and I are between phone calls. I feel so close to him sometimes because he had a heart condition and was hospitalized several times and I am going to be a nurse. Often I think about what procedures he went thru and what was it like when he was hospitalized. What did his nurses do for him etc. I feel as if his hand is in all this. I just got my acceptance letter to LVN school yesterday.

I hope you do take that step forward and go to nursing school. I'm sure you won't regret your decision if you do. I know my only regret was that I fell into a depression after my dad died and then I only took one class per semester after that thinking I couldn't handle any more. Now I wish I hadn't wasted so much time and took more classes. I know I had plenty of time on my hands and it would have done me good to fill it instead of thinking about my dad all the time.

I hope we can take this journey on together as we both start nursing school. Your mom will be with you every step of the way.

[flwannaB]

My mother passed away 7 years ago last week. I was with her when she died. It was very painful. It was hard to deal with but it does get better as time goes on. Your mother would be very proud of you for continuing your dream. On the day I graduate, I know mine will be up there watching me and cheering me on and so will yours be for you. Don't give up.

By the way, I tried to PM you and it said your messages are full. They can be deleted.

Amy

[BadBird, BSN, RN]

So sorry for you loss. Why not take some time for yourself, grieve however you grieve and don't add any more stress right now. I wish you much success no matter what you decide. Remember, you are never too old for education.