Grrrrr, just one of those days (rant)

[SororAKS, ADN, RN]

Just ranting a little bit. I'm sure this will get worked out satisfactorily, but briefly:

This is one of those days that I am so sick of monitoring. I have the opportunity to travel out of state for a weekend away, which I usually get covered without any difficulty, and my caseworker is very quick to approve previous requests. I haven't heard anything as of yet this time though.

I'm just tired of always having to ask for permission to do everything, even take a weekend away. I haven't had to do this since I was a teenager. Then there's the endless watching everything I eat, watching what kind of mouthwash/deodorant/hand sanitizer/shampoo/hair color/hairspray I use, daily checkins, waiting/waiting/waiting. My life is not my own, because I have a tether.

I'm reminding myself that I have just a few months until my contract is finished, and in all likelihood, this request will be approved.

I'm just SICK OF IT.

End of rant. Thank you all for listening.

[shugamomma]

I have those days too.

[SororAKS, ADN, RN]

Thanks, shugamomma...half of the battle of this is learning that one isn't alone. I appreciate you reaching out.

[reneern623]

I just can't wait until I get to control my bodily functions again! Gotta make sure you don't drink too much water, have something with protein, little or no caffeine... Worst was when I needed to poop, but I had to go pee and if I went poop I'd lose my pee and I needed that pee before I went to work or I'd be late waiting to pee again! Tmi but it gets frustrating [emoji24]

[dirtyhippiegirl, BSN, RN]

Yes to all of the posts in this thread. I can't wait for the day when getting the time off work is the biggest hurdle for travel, esp international travel. (My husband is Canadian and I haven't been up there in a few years.)

[Rosa09]

Can someone please elaborate in not using certain hair color, I understand about my food intake and products that don't contain alcohol, but hair color, what should I use?

BTW: I'm starting inpatient rehab soon.

[1sttime]

Can someone please elaborate in not using certain hair color, I understand about my food intake and products that don't contain alcohol, but hair color, what should I use?

BTW: I'm starting inpatient rehab soon.

Most of it is paranoia, as you get into the program you will be warned of many things. I have a hard time going to parties- I am constantly worried that someone has spiked the punch, or brought some marijuana infused treats...

Other people worry about hand sanitizer, hair color, and vanilla extract...

You'll start to look at labels for poppy seeds, and anything else that might trigger a positive drug screen.

We all have those days when we are sick of the monitoring- not being able to do healthy wholesome activities like camping or traveling to see family without permission- never being able to plan a busy day as you might get tested....

We know its for the best, and that the program is not individualized, so we jump through the hoops, counting down the days...

[nurse_kee77]

When I first began monitoring , I had a huge resentment. The money, the perceived "loss of freedom" etc .. Now at 15 months clean and sober I am forever thankful for monitoring . I went from not realizing that I am an alcoholic to living happy , joyous and free. I'm grateful for the 3 year monitoring period. Not everyone I see trying to get clean and sober on their own have the luxury of monitoring. Yes consequences and accountability are luxuries when I have seen so many fail without them. Stay well and stay grateful my friend.

[paidmydues]

Soror: so often you speak so well for all of us. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for quietly continuing your journey. We are with you sister. You have helped me Sooooooooo much..... (((((hugs))))) Paid