groan....i don't know what to do.....

kukukajoo, LPN · Apr 12, 2006

Your post is hard to follow but I do understand you are overwhelmed with choices and finding it hard to nail down a decision!

try this- get three pcs of paper- and list each job on one and split the paper in half and list one side pros, the other cons. Then get writing! Write everything you can think of about each job and the whys and whats. When you see it side by side, you may be better able to make a decision you can live with and not second guess after the fact, like I have done!

Also, above all else, listen to your gut!

TazziRN, RN · Apr 12, 2006

Which one would make you happier: the place where you were injured, this new place that you don't know, or the place that treats you well and where you enjoy working?

nurse_clown · Apr 12, 2006

okay, i've done a little bit of thinking and have decided not to take the new full time job. but i've also decided to recommend one of my friends for the job too. hopefully, she'll take it but i'll talk to her soon about it. she's looking for a "way out" of her job. i think i'll turn down the job where i injured myself out of fear that i'll be injured again. so, i'll work on the full time job at the other job i have. hopefully, i'll think the same tomorrow.

i was looking at courses and i haven't seen any dog training courses around here.

i think i'm just plain overwhelmed. a friend of mine died in a car accident last week and his father is a friend of my dad's. it was very sad to see him. he's usually a very strong, serious and intense person. but at the viewing, he was trying to put on a brave face. but he was on the verge of tears. i had to talk to my dad and ask him to go see his friend. it must be hard to deal with a death like that. at the same time, a friend's mother died of cancer. my mother died two years ago from a stroke and that was hard. i couldn't imagine how my friend was feeling. actually, i could. i wish death wasn't so hard and final. i watch death at work. that's not bad. i can handle that. but when it affects the people that i know.... it's weird.

i think i'm getting way off topic here but i think it's part of my fear to make decisions. i want to be available for people around me. i don't want them sad and unhappy.

...then my two year old son choked on a jelly bean yesterday. i was in the shower and my hubby came busting in with toddler under his arm. he wasn't breathing. it initiated the appropriate first aid and his jelly bean shot out. when he fell limp, i started getting scared but he started taking in air and everything was fine after that. he is fine now. but phew! what a scarey minute there. i'm just glad my son had the good sense to look for someone when he's in trouble. i heard some kids run and hide.

anyway, i think i'm just venting here. i am overwhelmed. and the only person i talk to now is my chiropractor. maybe i should see a counsellor or something.

Spritenurse1210, BSN, RN · Apr 12, 2006

this might be long....
i'm an rn. i work two part time jobs. i was injured on one job and was off for six weeks. now i've done two weeks of "modified" duties and got clearance to go back to full duties. i'm happy about that. i'm still hurting from the injury but i see a chiropractor for that.
while i was off, i had such a hard time with occupational health. she's mean and rude. i couldn't deal with her and refused to talk to her after a while. i'm so glad i'm off that modified program. it stinks. she had the nerve to tell me that i'm non-compliant. personally, i didn't think she knew her job very well and was a liar. but that's beside the point. she made me so bitter that i don't have a nice thing to say about her or the one place i work at.
the other place i work at bent over backwards for me and getting back to that job was easy.
so, while i'm off work, i received another job offer. it's full time. just what i need. and the other place i work part time at has made a full time offer as well. the place that i was injured at offered full time and with the schedule i want too. i know i need full time. i get paid better at the one place. but my other job has a much better atmosphere and they love me. the other place that called (out of the blue) will give me the highest wage. but i just can't up and leave the one place that treats me so well. but then again, the one other job is very exciting and i'm always learning something new there. but i'd always be learning something no matter where i work.
honestly, i'd rather quit the job where i was injured and take a dog training course. i'd rather just enjoy the summer, pick flowers, chase butterflies and grow a garden all summer. maybe learn how to make jam.
back to this occupational health nurse... she's mean. she doesn't have a good thing to say. this whole experience was a tremendous experience for me. doing all that paperwork, learning to live by the rules and putting up with "red tape". it was crazy. there's so much politics and rules in nursing. i'd prefer just to do my job and make sure i do it well. i don't want to know the union rule book. i don't want to understand hospital and regional politics is the reason why certain decisions are made. sometimes, i think "ignorance is bliss" i hate knowing that my manger has had a lot of responsibility thrown at her and maybe it's too much. morale is low. but there are many reasons why i want to take each full time job.
well, anyway, i don't know what to do. i shouldn't let an opportunity pass me by and now i have three. but what's the best choice and what's wrong with not taking any offers? other than having everyone around me yelling at me cuz i'm crazy. i've always wanted some sort of stability in my schedule and also in my life. getting a full time job would help. but right now i'm not sure i want it. i'd rather stay away from rules thank you very much!!!! i feel like i'm going crazy because i can't make a decision. what do i do?/SIZE]

the other place offers more money?? better atmosphere. they love you? sounds like a no brainer.