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I don't like that we are all on this forum, but that's life and I'm glad we have this space and you all are here.  I first joined last March 2022 when my monitoring agreement started.  I posted a little bit, but then the traffic here really dropped off.  I think many people were paranoid that their board/monitoring agency was on here also?

I have a 5 year monitoring agreement that slowly gets less restrictive as time goes on.  Sometimes, I don't know how I'll make it to 2027.  It's so intrusive.  Other times, I think well I made it 17 months out of 60 months.  So many monthly fees and test fees though.  I can't imagine when I have to do hair tests. 

At least I'm allowed to work I guess. I try to look at the big picture of things and that I'm not in that 90 day rehab and with my family. 

nolongeranurse said:

I was in the monitoring program for 5 years. I had to call every day and if my color came up, I had to go into the local hospital and get a urine test. It took them about 2 years to figure out what to do when I go called in for a drug test on Saturdays. If my color was picked on Saturdays I had to go to the ER and get tested. Every time I went in all the nurses acted like they had no idea what to do with me. They questioned why I was there and told me that they didn't have a doctor's order for a test. They acted like I was asking them to remove a kidney or something. Anyways- eventually the lab took over and that went better. I had one lab lady that was so rude to me when I went that I came out crying a few times. I finally reported her, and she was let go. It appears I was not the only one that she was mean to. I started out on a 3-year monitoring program, but it ended up being 5 years because I tested positive for alcohol twice. I did not drink any alcohol or take anything that would make the test be positive for alcohol. It was just a mistake and I do not know what caused the false results, but I got 2 years added to my time. Looking back the 5 years went fast and I even though it sucked, and I would not do it again- it's not forever. 

Were the false positive tests a peth test? How do you know it's a peth test? I never know what they are testing for. 

Another question, did you try to do a hair or nail test to prove your innocence after the false positive tests? 

I do not know what the reasons for the false positive tests were and no one ever could answer that question for me. I just know that I didn't drink any alcohol or consume anything on the list that they gave me, and I did test positive for alcohol twice. I have never had an alcohol problem. I have only drunk alcohol twice in my life and it made me sick- it just wasn't for me. I had never heard of hair or nail test tests at that time, nor did anyone offer that to me. I was just told that I tested positive for alcohol, and I told her that I had not consumed any alcohol and they added a year each time. The lady from the program really didn't say much but she didn't act like she was surprised or anything- I don't know what she thought- I just know that I didn't consume alcohol.

nolongeranurse said:

I do not know what the reasons for the false positive tests were and no one ever could answer that question for me. I just know that I didn't drink any alcohol or consume anything on the list that they gave me, and I did test positive for alcohol twice. I have never had an alcohol problem. I have only drunk alcohol twice in my life and it made me sick- it just wasn't for me. I had never heard of hair or nail test tests at that time, nor did anyone offer that to me. I was just told that I tested positive for alcohol, and I told her that I had not consumed any alcohol and they added a year each time. The lady from the program really didn't say much but she didn't act like she was surprised or anything- I don't know what she thought- I just know that I didn't consume alcohol.

OMG. 2 years. That's insane. 

I appreciate people for posting. I have come here many times just to read and feel supported by proxy. I had something traumatic happen to me and I didn't handle it well and here I am. I'm 2 1/2 years into a 4 year program and it's completely dehumanizing but it is what it is. Checking in daily, testing, not being able to travel outside of the country, not wanting to travel anywhere really because it's not worth the stress of having to test away from home. I was a nervous wreck the day of my daughters out of state wedding because I was so scared I would have to test (I didn't thank God). It's all so intrusive and ridiculously too long. I hate having to tell every Tom Dick and Harry I meet when I see a doctor that I'm in this program, here will you sign this saying I told you I have a "substance use disorder.” My husband can't believe what I have to do, he said it's worse than being on probation (it is). I just keep telling myself this isn't forever and when it's over I'm going to take a cruise LOL. The worst of it is behind me, I have a job I love (I'm an NP) but it definitely has been a lonely road with few people to talk to about it. So anyways, not sure where I'm going with this except to say that I appreciate people who post, it's bound to help someone. 2 1/2 years down, 1 1/2 to go and maybe I'll ask for early release, someone here did that in my state and it was granted. I don't let it define me anymore and I know I'm not a bad person. But I sure could go on and on about how completely punitive these programs are. They are way too long and that they don't take each incipient case by case but instead lump everyone into the same one size fits all mentality. I wish everyone luck and if I can answer any questions for any newbies I sure would be happy to. 

JKL65423 said:

I appreciate people for posting. I have come here many times just to read and feel supported by proxy. I had something traumatic happen to me and I didn't handle it well and here I am. I'm 2 1/2 years into a 4 year program and it's completely dehumanizing but it is what it is. Checking in daily, testing, not being able to travel outside of the country, not wanting to travel anywhere really because it's not worth the stress of having to test away from home. I was a nervous wreck the day of my daughters out of state wedding because I was so scared I would have to test (I didn't thank God). It's all so intrusive and ridiculously too long. I hate having to tell every Tom Dick and Harry I meet when I see a doctor that I'm in this program, here will you sign this saying I told you I have a "substance use disorder.” My husband can't believe what I have to do, he said it's worse than being on probation (it is). I just keep telling myself this isn't forever and when it's over I'm going to take a cruise LOL. The worst of it is behind me, I have a job I love (I'm an NP) but it definitely has been a lonely road with few people to talk to about it. So anyways, not sure where I'm going with this except to say that I appreciate people who post, it's bound to help someone. 2 1/2 years down, 1 1/2 to go and maybe I'll ask for early release, someone here did that in my state and it was granted. I don't let it define me anymore and I know I'm not a bad person. But I sure could go on and on about how completely punitive these programs are. They are way too long and that they don't take each incipient case by case but instead lump everyone into the same one size fits all mentality. I wish everyone luck and if I can answer any questions for any newbies I sure would be happy to. 

I'm definitely not telling every doctor I go to that I have this "diagnosis" and in this "program."  I only tell them if they try to give me for example, cough syrup with codeine or I have to get something for wisdom teeth being taken out, etc. 

I haven't even told my PCP about this.  Because it's ridiculous.

You are lucky you can ask for early "release" from the monitoring program.  I have to do 5 years and I think nobody gets to get out early.  It does get easier in year 4 and 5 with very few urine etg tests, although I wonder if they add in more peth tests then.

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Txrntrying said:

Quick question guys:  I know some employers use a third party to do a social media check during the background check, which uses software to do a deep dive to find accounts registered to certain emails ect...LOL does anyone know if this site counts as such? I wouldn't think so but I figure it can't hurt to ask if anyone has any experience with this since I don't and I've always been pretty careful on social media...TIA!

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