Giving Up?

anotherone, BSN, RN · Jan 4, 2011

Pretty much all the time... and I'm a new nurse!

ImThatGuy, BSN, RN · Jan 4, 2011

Undertaking? Funeral directing?

I just wanted to know what the OP had in mind.

LoveANurse09 · Jan 9, 2011

hahaha, well you guys cheered me up at least. I came into nursing knowing ALL I wanted to do was OB, stupid I know, but I knew that's what I wanted. Even in school, I could tolerate everything else and thought I might actually like doing it.

After almost 2 years (18 months of actively seeking OB) I just can't stand it anymore. I hate coming to work so much that about 4 pm every night I keep looking at the clock thinking "I dont wanna go, I dont wanna go!" Some nights I just dont care, which I know means I should get out. I'm not harming pts by any means or risking their safety, but I just dont care anymore!

Its sad to think after only 2 years I feel this way, but I do. I dont know if its just the place I work or not. I really DONT like it here.

Recently I've rediscoverd my true love singing/performing. I dont know if its COMPLETELY opposite, maybe I'm a little dramatic. I always wanted to be an actor or a singer, but chalked that off to a silly kid dream that would never happen and after high school decided that I needed to "make good money."

But actually I wouldn't mind to even sing in coffee shops at open mic night if it paid the bills. Ughh, well I do feel better writing this at least. Thanks for listening!

LoveANurse09 · Jan 9, 2011

Thanks Davey Do!

carolmaccas66, BSN, RN · Jan 9, 2011

The big question is: can you sing? And could you make a living out of it do you think? If you get professionally assessed, and can get work, go for it by all means.

I wish I'd not listened to everyone when I was younger and pursued my passion for art and history, but everyone said you won't make money, etc, but I didn't even think of going on to teach for a living - I was too young and naive.

Wishing you luck for the future.

eriksoln, BSN, RN · Jan 9, 2011

I think about it all the time. If I leave nursing, it'll be because I don't feel like I am living up to my own expectations for it, not because of the way things are.

I always said nursing was a path one should not walk if they are not truly committed to doing a good job with it. Sometimes I saw myself having too many "Just wanna get the day over with" type days. Its fine/normal/expected to feel that way sometimes, but if thats the rule instead of the exception..........eh, well, I don't want to do that.

I'm still in the field because I honestly think, if I can fix a couple things that have gone wrong for me, I can be the nurse I want to be. First step, for me anyway, was getting off nights. Not my thing, the lack of a sleep schedule killed my willingness to help/compassion. I also got away from a unit I considered toxic and into a situation that was much better. Now, we'll see if I can live up to what I believe a nurse should be.

LoveANurse09 · Jan 13, 2011

carol_ yes, I can sing! I mean I'm not Jennifer Hudson, but I think I could do it! I hate that our society teaches kids that are artsy, that you can't make a living out of it,this is why the arts are struggling in so many areas of the country.

yeah ericsoln, I feel the same way. I'm a little disappointed that I'm not able to be the nurse that I want to be right now, in the field that I want to be in. PLus the fact that I work nights also and although I'm usually a night person, I rarely see the sun. Not to mention the winter always makes me a little depressed!

Well, we'll see what happens. I am going to start guitar lessons soon and we'll see where that takes me. Maybe if I can do a few things on the side, I'll be happier! Thanks everyone!