I think I am starting to get a little burned out with nursing school. The thought has even occured to me to drop out of school, take my LPN boards, and work for a year. But to do this would limit me. I always planned to become an RN and want to work in OB. Need my RN to do this. My husband has been in a dead end job for the past 4 years so that I could do this, and then he plans to go back to school. So, this sort of seems like a waste of time to drop out and then go back in a year. The reason why I am feeling so negative on school because it is starting to affect everything. I am finding myself getting anxious at homes. I find myself getting paranoid if I can't remember giving a med at clinical, but know that I checked those MAR's 3 times per hour with my instructor and my nurse. If I am paranoid now, what in the heck will it be like when I am on the floor as a nurse.
I am also discouraged because of the stress I have been under with studying for a test that I took on Tuesday. I have been keeping up with all of my reading in class, study my notes daily, and studied for 3 days for this test. I ended up with a 55%. The class average is a 60%. The material was cardiac. OK, my grades are not really a concern. At the present time, they are not great, but were pretty good before this test. I have around an 80% currently in theory and an A in clinical. I am also tired. I have not been able to sleep more than four hours a night for a long time because of this anxiety. I am also finding myself relaxing with a glass of wine more often than I used to. I used to never drink and now I usually have a glass or two nearly every Friday at the end of the week.
I know that I have to keep on keeping on, but right now it just seems that six months is such a long time before I am done. I really feel that I have no one to talk to about my feelings with this program. My husband feels I am being stupid about my feelings and that the program isn't hard, just me making it hard (what the heck does he know). My supposed best friend who graduated a year ago is one of those superior beings who looks down her nose a little too much, and is a huge snob. My other best friend just entered his LPN year and finds his first quarter to be cake. My other really good freinds are not in nursing and so I can't really tell about the program to these friends in a way that they could understand. I don't like to talk to the people in my class because we are so competitive with our ranking. We are a pretty cutthroat group. I know that I am not unique to this situation, but I just need some encouragement from people who know what it is like. You know, I gripe, you use therapeutic communication. You gripe, I return the favor. That sort of thing.
Thanks all, that felt really good to get that out.
Dec 5, '02
Our whole class had a phrase for the last semester:
"I'm soooo OVER this school/studying thing." All of us were practically barfing at the sight of yet another book/video/computer teaching aid.
Thank god our class was so supportive; it was around this time that we started going out to lunch occasionally together and planning our graduation. Some of us still keep in touch.
So you're not alone, fer sure. Maybe some others have some great advice for you; I just stuck in there and slogged it out. No choice.
Part of my problem was that I wasn't getting enought rest. By the last part of the program, I had to be a workaholic 24/7.
If I was at home, I was "supposed" to be studying. If I was at school, I hadn't studied enough. If I was at work, I was still supposed to be studying.
My mind just wouldn't allow me to take that much-needed break.
I scheduled a nice trip to Busch Gardens after graduation and did absolutely NOTHING all day, with my family. And you can bet I made up for all those fun things I missed (like family life, sleep, and SEX!!!
) during my first year after school.
Last edit by Sleepyeyes on Dec 5, '02