((((HUGS)))) Stay encouraged
You must process this experience in your own way -- CHOOSE to use it to better yourself as a nurse (sounds like you already have!)
KNOW that because you are aware (AWARENESS IS KEY
of the problem, you now can take precautions to avoid it in the future!
Just like others have shared -- you are not alone and it is ok. It is understandable how it affected you
<we have one particular instructor @ our school that is known for sending entire groups home w/"unsats" -- everyone, not myself b/c I had her for my very 1st clinical & know how to cope after having that experience, lolol -- everyone is scared of her -- it's a terrible learning environment...absolutely NOT conducive to learning at all...a very uncomfortable, stressful atmosphere -- which leaves students scrambling for how to deal w/all those fears INSTEAD of focusing on the issue at hand -- LEARNING AND INCREASING OUR PATIENT CARE TECHNIQUES!!>
Stay encouraged and congrats! I look forward to hearing good reports from you in the future