First of all, let me send out a big DA BEARS!!!!! straight from the south side of Chicago!!!! I am sure EVERYONE in my area and Indiana (which I love as well) is looking forward to this superbowl for sure!!!!! That being said, I also want to say HELLO! and Nice to meet you to all of the new people here! Seems like an intelligent and invigorating crowd has stepped in!!!! Just the kind I need to ask advice from!!!!! Here goes:
I am a new RN (just got my license in the mail 2 weeks ago, Yippeee!) After a lengthy time off from work (6 months--that is long for me!), I jumped at the chance to begin work license pending at a very nice hospital approx. 30 mins from home. Now let me start by saying--I HATE DRIVING! Period. But this hospital is huge, very well run by Illinois' standards (explanation of that remark upon request only!), and most everyone there is very kind, intelligent, and supportive of a new grad fool like me! While I oriented (or orientated, whichever you prefer) on days for 8 weeks, I was a star!!!! "Michelle, you are great", and "No way you are a new grad, you are so smart!" Well, my head barely fit into the elevator on my way out! haha! My preceptor was this wonderful male nurse who I got along with GREAT!! I may even attend his upcoming wedding this Sept! You all know what they say, all good things must come to an end...I got hired for full-time 3p-11p--not what I wanted, but what they so desperately needed. Weeelll, I desperately needed to get to work, so I took it. I now see why they are in such dire need! Terrible shift that 3-11 is!!!! Started on the 8th of January and I am being precepted now by a nit-picking, chiding, supervisor who has no tolerance for a fool like me! She is a nice woman, don't get me wrong, but she is a terrible preceptor. PERIOD. I want out--badly. Sound like a quitter? Maybe. BUT--there is more to this dilemma--there is a small hospital (and I mean small, but it holds it's own in this big city, somehow, for over 50 years) that I actually worked at in the admitting dept back in '98! Worked there for over 3 years and quit on good terms to pursue my education in nursing. I even did my med-surg clinicals there with a wonderful CI who has offered me a full time position when I am ready. This small hospital is exactly 12 mins from home, and that is excellent for me. I know over 50% of the employees, had many friends, some that I still speak with to this day. But the other hospital has so much more to offer in a career sense, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!
Should I stay at this big place and learn to deal with a difficult drive and an even more difficult boss?? BTW, this week was supposed to be the week I went off orientating, but Ms. Thing told the higher ups that I was slow with reading charts!!!! HELLOOOOO! I was a unit secretary for over 3 years! I can read doctor's handwriting with the best of 'em!!!! Let me also mention that another new hire who is also a new grad, who BTW hasn't done HALF the clinical setting skills that I have, (start IV's, draw from a PICC, start a Foley, etc, and I know this because she told me this herself) IS ALREADY OFF ORIENTATION!!!!! AAAaaaarrrrrggghhh! That totally busted my bubble-head!!!!! I wanted to cry the eve I found that out. To make matters worse, they put her on her own on a quiet Sunday with 5 pts and NO admissions. I always get 6pts with at least one new admission, sometimes 2!!!! So you all know they will continue that when I am on my own!!!! I am so upset about the whole thing. I have already wrote 2 letters stating the problems that I am having with my preceptor, but to NO avail. She is a boss, and she has been there 16+ years, what chance do I have??? ZIP. I went to work early today to meet with the other bosses and I can see that even though they want to help, they won't.
Now if I go to this smaller place, I will work just as hard and probably go through the same crap (hey welcome to nursing, buckaroo) and I am ready for it. I work hard at whatever I do. I am NOT whining about the work, don't get me wrong, but I at least will be A) closer to home and 2) surrounded by familiar faces. Any thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated. WHeeew! Even if no one replies, I feel so much better to get all of that off my chest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I truly LOVE allnurses.com! Bye 4 now!