new mom, new grad, freaked out

[newmamanewgrad]

Hi I recently started a new grad RN job which I have been ridiculously nervous about. I am also 7 week pregnant. I feel terrible. I anxiety ridden and faint, my heart feels like it is going to burst out of my chest. I finished my orientation and was having such bad anxiety that I wanted to quit. Instead I went to my doc who put me on buspar. I was feeling better and somewhat looking forward to starting my new job. On the first day after only 30 minutes on the floor I all of a sudden got really hot and bam.... passed out cold. I can not believe this is happening to me. anytime I think about nursing my heart starts beating out of control and I am afriad that I am going to pass out. I went and talked to my doctor who insisted that maybe I just find an less stressful job. SO.. now I am truly considering quitting my first job as a med surg rn. I have been looking into possibly finding another nurse job in maybe a snf. I am so stressed out and not thinking normal. I am so panicked that I dont sleep and I am convinced my husband thinks I am crazy. I feel so guilty that after all this time in nursing school and all the support and finances that maybe Im too scared to do this.

[VANurse2010]

Yeah, if you're looking to avoid stress, a SNF is the LAST place you need to be working - it will be as bad if not 100x worse than a hospital floor.

[clvn23]

Try looking towards a doctors office or a school nurse postion

[newmamanewgrad]

thats a really good idea. thanks

[nurseprnRN, BSN, RN]

Does your doc know you're pregnant? And he's prescribing you Buspar? I am assuming he's ruled out a paroxysmal tachycardia, which would do all of the above; if he hasn't, and he hasn't looked at your thyroid levels, go back and ask again.

If all that checks out, ask for a stat referral to a CBT therapist. Situational anxiety is quite treatable with cognitive-behavioral therapy.

[newmamanewgrad]

My doc suggested that I should stop taking the buspar due to the fact that its not working, I am going to get my thyroid checked soon. I just want to feel better.

[Covaryx123]

I'm sorry that happened. I know how hard we all work to be where we are. And it would be difficult to hear someone say "maybe you should find something less stressful".

Doc office nurses, no matter the practice have been sweet. I'm sure the flow would be different to try to learn, but that's a good recommendation. So is a school RN.