Yesterday I was termed from my job at a LTC facility (technically I "resigned"). I had only worked there a couple of months. I understood their reasoning for letting me go. Due to low census they sent home the nurse who was working the other end of my hall and so I then had 70+ residents to take care of (something I'd never done). On top of that I had an admit (never had done that either). I got confused b/c I thought one of the nurses from a different hall (there are 2 on that hall) would be coming up to cover the other half of mine, which turned out not to be the case. Anywho, so when it was all over and done with some people ended up getting their meds too late and some didn't get them at all. The nurse that had been sent home had already signed out the meds but hadn't given them. Apparently they were in little cups somewhere in the cart but I don't remember her showing me where. I tried to get some help from the other nurses but they were busy with their own stuff and I wasn't sure whether one of them was coming to help. I called my ADON, got her voicemail, and got a call back 1.5 hrs later telling me to do my best. I was quite overwhelmed by the end of the shift and may not have been thinking clearly.
I also got termed from an L&D floor at the end of my orientation b/c they said I wasn't learning the ropes fast enough and they could no longer make an investment in me. I was also in grad-school full-time while working there.
I also got asked to leave a nurse-midwifery program I went into right after nursing school b/c of professional issues. They said I should work as an L&D nurse for a while and try again (really easy in this economy, right?)
I originally went to nursing school b/c I wanted to go to midwifery school and I found I like being an RN and am proud to be a nurse. I'm very passionate about women's health and helping women have the births they want safely. I did quite well in midwifery school in terms of my clinical skills.
After dumping all my dirty laundry on you guys I'd like some feedback. Is it possible to be so passionate about something and just be bad at it? Are there any recommendations for me? I have started applying for jobs and am willing to move anywhere. My dad asked me last night whether I should think about something other than nursing since that doesn't seem to be my forte.
I am very confused and my self-esteem is pretty low so any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Aug 14, '09
I agree with the other posts about the coworker not only dishing up meds, but signing them out as given! As a former unit manager, I would have chewed some behind on that!
You sound like you have big plans and going for the higher degree is always a struggle with juggling job and family. If you have your BSN, maybe public health would be a good start for you. A Maternal Child PHN could be the way to go.
I have worked in long term care and know of the short cuts, short staffing, and frustration. I have been a PHN for almost 3 years now and it is great! Look into it!
Best of luck to you finding your nitch!
Last edit by BSN_after_40 on Aug 14, '09