Can't take anymore - page 2
I am in the last few months of school before I become an RN. Last night I found myself balling for no apparant reason and noticed it's a pattern lately. I do not know if it is burnout or what. I am... Read More
Mar 2, '04Occupation: Pedi RN Joined: Sep '00; Posts: 2,728; Likes: 109of course chronic stress can lead to situational depression, but you sound savvy enough to know that this is a temporary situation. I was so exhausted when I graduated that I slept thru the party my family held in my honor! Strong hugs being sent your way!!!!
Mar 2, '04Joined: Feb '04; Posts: 157Quote from ferferFerfer.I am in the last few months of school before I become an RN. Last night I found myself balling for no apparant reason and noticed it's a pattern lately. I do not know if it is burnout or what. I am almost there and yet I feel as though I have already exhausted all my energy and there is nothing much left to give to finish. I am soooooo tired of being tired, of feeling so utterly exhausted that I am now a raving caffeine addict (cardiac arrythmias and all to go with it). I am so tired of never seeing my daughter and my fiancee, and trying to explain to this 3 year old why I am not there for her- breaks my heart! I am so tired of being put-down by instructors that seem to thrive off of degrading people and slowly wittling away their only shreds of self-concept. That, along with the BS instructors that you have to kiss a** just to pass. I feel like this has just become too much. I have NO life outside of nursing and my GOD, I just want this to be over already. Thank you for letting me vent as nobody understands the way someone that has been through it could!
Everyone is right. You are going through a major stressful time right now. Totally normal to feel stressed. I am worried though, that you might be experiencing an underlying depression. Maybe check it out okay? Sometimes an antidepressent cant just make the stress less overwhelming and easier to deal with. If you can see the light at the end of the tunnel, that is a good sign. If you cant, thats a warning sign....
I've been there. I will be thinking of you!
Mar 2, '04Joined: Feb '04; Posts: 157One more thing.....you are doing your 3 year old a huge favor by going to school! You will have so much more quality time with her and your fiance when it is finished.....option of 12 hr shifts with more days off to spend with her, etc.
Mar 4, '04Occupation: Mother/Baby & Nursery RN Specialty: 1 year(s) of experience in OB/GYN ; Joined: Aug '02; Posts: 89Hang in there, girl! Not long now. The way you are feeling is TOTALLY normal............... and I feel your pain!
I feel that way right now and I still have one year to go!
You will make it and you will be just fine. Make plans with you fiance and daughter to have a little break all together when you have graduated. You deserve it!!!!
Best of luck to you and let us know how you get on!
I am rooting for you! :kiss
Mar 4, '04Occupation: Cardiology/Pulmonology Office Joined: Jan '04; Posts: 73; Likes: 15I always call this situation (and I HAVE THE T-SHIRT!), "The Light at the End of the Tunnel Syndrome". When we begin a journey, we don't focus much, if at all on the end.
As we go along, we are just moving ahead steadily, one day a time, kinda in the dark so to speak. We know we have to keep going to reach the end of the tunnel so we just keep on, step..step...step, head down, determined, but when we get far enough to see just that speck of light, as we keep moving toward the end, suddenly the pace seems agonizinly slow, the light seems hopelessly out of reach, and oh so slow to appear any closer.
But it's not, as I know you know, and as all b/f me have said, hang in there, and since YOU mentioned God, I can say lean on Him, and that light is gonna grow bigger and bigger, and you'll be there.
Mar 4, '04Occupation: OR Nurse Joined: Feb '04; Posts: 565; Likes: 11Unless, of course, if the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train.
Mar 4, '04Occupation: Cardiology/Pulmonology Office Joined: Jan '04; Posts: 73; Likes: 15Quote from orrnloriIs that was it was????????? :rollUnless, of course, if the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train.
Mar 4, '04Joined: Apr '02; Posts: 38,763; Likes: 16,343normal
hang in there......
been there and done that. it will pass.
Mar 4, '04Joined: Dec '03; Posts: 13know how you feel. im only in my first year and it was galling to be treated like an idiot. im 52 with two masters. i stood up to it. i wouldn't recommend it for the faint of heart. but writing up your clinical instructor for HER errors was somewhat satisfying. i have made peace with her at the moment. but wouldn't think twice about having her for lunch if it came to that. mercifully she had enough sense to make sure i wasnt in her clinical group this semester. there is a god.
Mar 4, '04Occupation: Cardiac ICU Specialty: 12 year(s) of experience in MICU, SICU, CICU ; From: US ; Joined: Mar '04; Posts: 489; Likes: 243I can understand exactly. I have exactly 8 weeks until graduation from my ADN program. I acted on misinformation from a nurse and mixed up two patients for a total of 10 minutes. We are is psych. and are not allowed to pass meds, so the patient was never in any jeopardy. My instructor found out and failed me for the entire clinical day:angryfire ! As a result if I receive another unsatisfactory I will fail clinical and the program!
For 2 years I have not had a single unsatisfactory, and now I am teetering on the verdge of failing. I also have no social life. I am at school, home, or library never anywhere else.
Only 8 more weeks to go!!!!!!!
Mar 4, '04Joined: Feb '04; Posts: 59; Likes: 9Thanks to everyone who has replied- it helps to know that I am not a total nutbar and that you have all been through it
I think the other thing, too, is that I do not have any time to deal with any of life's mini-crises due to the program. I have had 2 miscarriages in the past 6 months, one was during orientation to my labour and delivery clinical. But, I had no time to deal with it- I just have to keep on pushing anf put it out of my mind just to get through with all the work that has to be done. One of the things I will try to domore is just honor my feelings. If I am upset than I need to acknowledge it rather than just push it away because I am too 'busy' to think about it. We do such a good job of taking care of everyone else------maybe its time for ME, even if only for a day
Mar 4, '04Occupation: emergency RN Joined: Mar '03; Posts: 833; Likes: 25HEy fERFER
I too feel your pain, I just got home from clinical and tomorrow I start SPRING BREAK! Man I need it! I have my little calendar, too. I have 15 days left for lecture and 14 days left for clinical!!! I cant wait till its over! So lets count it down together, sista! :kiss
Mar 4, '04Joined: Jul '02; Posts: 128; Likes: 13Don't forget to get out in the sun if you can. I remember being very stressed out and feeling blue all the time and realized that I had been studying so much and staying indoors during the winter that I never saw the sun. It could be a nice stress release to go outside and sit in the sun for a few minutes and get that extra boost of serotonin to lift you up. Nursing school was the most stressful thing I have ever endured. You will be done soon and things will get easier. Hang in there.