#!@$ I hate cancer - page 2

I hate it because it's cruel. I hate it because it's indiscriminate. I hate it because it is sucking the ever loving life out of a beautiful soul and there absolutely nothing I can do about it. ... Read More

  1. by   DowntheRiver
    I'm a cancer survivor. I was 21 when I was diagnosed with Stage 2B Hodgkin Lymphoma. Because of my age I was grouped with the younger adults. I honestly cannot call them children despite how young they were just because of how they acted. I have never met and engaged with anyone before who had such grace, poise, and discernment. Half of them knew they weren't meant for this world much longer yet that didn't seem to stop them from continuing with their lives. That experience honestly was humbling. 12 rounds of ABVD, a location change, a school change, and 4 years later and I'm starting my ASN program this month.
  2. by   eagle78
    Congratulations and good luck to you futureprice.

    OP, you fixed more than you can ever realize because you were there for that little girl. As so many have already said sometimes a touch, a ear or just a person around when we are all alone works wonder for the spirit. Bless you OP, you really did good...
  3. by   hoinlexm
    Very well written and honest. Thanks for sharing!
  4. by   ShantheRN
    This was a lovely read. That hand holding did more than you'll know. Cancer is a horrible, horrible disease. My mother died from it at 43 and the nursing staff is what got me through it. My family fell apart, but her nurses were the angels that picked me up. Oncology sucks so bad sometimes, but honestly? Moments like these are what get me through the day sometimes. I'm not sure how long I'll be able to do this before it breaks me, but...for me, it's a "pay it forward" thing. I'll never forget those hospice nurses and their kindness. Even if your pt didn't survive, the last thing she felt was your comforting touch.
  5. by   Brian
    Thanks for sharing your heartfelt story!
  6. by   nursel56
    Thanks so much for your story. That person has turned into what I call the few "you never forget". They remain as a snapshot in time forever (for me). I worked at a pediatric hospital for several years as a direct result of my little brother being diagnosed with leukemia at age 4 (he's OK now at 41). I have a few "snapshots" - not all had cancer, but all were just not fair.

    To this day fresh tears still spring out when I think of them.

    futureprice - Bless you and good luck in nursing school!!!
  7. by   RN in training
    one word...waaahhhhhhhhhh!!! thank you for sharing. beautiful.
  8. by   jwrands
    Beautifully sad. I was diagnosed with a grade II brain tumor and had a craniotomy just this past year, and from it, it's the reason why I want to be a nurse. In a way, I know how reassuring it can be just to have someone there to listen, or to just be there, and I hope that I'll be able to in the very least, do the same for others who are afflicted by cancer and other ailments for however long I have left.
  9. by   nursel56
    best wishes to you jwrands! [color=#b22222]✿[color=#2f4f4f]*゚'゚・
  10. by   Sarah96
    Cancer is an awful thing, but is actually what led me in the direction of nursing in the first place. My dad past away last year from gastric cancer. Up until his death he had nurses from hospice coming to our home to care for him. She walked in on one of his final days and noticed me adjusting his wheelchair and washing his face. She looked at me and said "You're going to be a nurse someday, aren't you?" It was then that I knew it was what I wanted to do. I am still a high school student but I'm taking the steps to becoming a Licensed Nursing Assistant in my state. I'm sorry to hear about the experiences you all have had with cancer. It is both painful to go through and painful to watch. My thoughts are with you all. Just remember that there is ALWAYS a positive outlook to things. One has to hit rock bottom before they can rise up! God Bless <3
  11. by   jwrands
    Nursel56, Thanks...