Hello all! I am new to this forum, so far it has been my only source of sanity. I cry pretty much all day, every day. I have been at the same hospital for 23 yrs & was recently terminated for diversion. I was scared & refused a drug test & I did not self report. I initially thought I would just give up & find something else to do after I heard about the 5 year deal. I'm very social & just can't wrap my head around not being able to go on vacation, cruises, all inclusive trips which I do 1-2x/yr & not drink. And now I'm reading hairspray will even make you test positive for alcohol!! Also, I reached out to the last 3 nurses in my unit that were fired for diversion & they either got their license revoked or did what they needed to initially & then let it lapse r/t the financial strain & stress of the program so I was very discouraged. I waited about a month before I changed my mind & went to a PHP
(M-F/8-2) & AA/NA meetings on top of that for at least 3 weeks, maybe more depending on what the Dr. recommends I guess? I haven't actually started, I'm waiting on my Cobra ins to go through but I did my initial assmt last Wed. I had to sign something agreeing to no alcohol or even my lunesta between then & when I start or I wouldn't be eligible for the program so I haven't been sleeping at all, hopefully I will start this Tues. I received a letter from the BON stating a compliant had been filed & the allegations, requesting a sworn statement concerning the allegations to be notorized & a medical/treatment info release authorization for medical records which I have not submitted yet b/c I wasn't in treatment when I received it. But I have missed the deadline of when it was all due 9/23, I also spoke with an attorney & he advised me not to sign anything. I did admit to the diversion, which was opiates over a period of about 4-6 mo so I'm not sure if getting an attorney is even worth it? I may have waited too late now. It's been 7 weeks since I've worked (5 since I was terminated, I had 2 wks off prior to my termination) & I'm fine w/o narcotics. It was a stupid lapse in judgment with personal reasons that looking back, were so insignificant compared to how I've ruined my life now. I've had to put my house & car up for sale preparing for what's to come & have already pulled money out of my retirement & it's just the beginning. I'm just not sure if it's all worth it. Any advice in general & on how the GA BON/process works would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!!
