From honeymoon to hell in a few short weeks...

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Specializes in Emergency Room.

My first job, my dream job, my ER job that I have wanted for as long as I can remember....

The honeymoon period was full of blissful idealism. Reality is a bitter pill to swallow. The honeymoon ended too quickly. I quit yesterday. I felt backed into a corner. I felt like my license was in jeopardy everyday...and license aside...I felt my PATIENTS were in jeopardy everyday. I felt powerless to help because I felt my pleas for guidance and preceptorship other than in-name-only were, at best, unheard and, at worst, ignored.

I am sad. I am also relieved that I don't have to go back.

My thoughts are with others who are out there going through the same or similar circumstances.

Some say nurses eat their young. I don't feel eaten. I feel chewed up and spit out. Or maybe I feel eaten and sh*t out. Hmmm....something to ponder on this sleepless night....

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Specializes in EMS, ED, Trauma, CEN, CPEN, TCRN.

Oh, crud ... *hugs* I am so very, very sorry. I am proud of you for standing up for yourself, but I am so sad because I know how much you loved it at first! Ugh.

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Sorry to hear what you are gong through. The worst part of nursing are the nurses. Sad.

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I'm sorry to hear that. I'm a new grad too. Surprisingly the ER nurses at three of our clinical are the most friendly nurses. Did they give you enough training? Do you have a preceptor? Why you feel that your license and your patient are jeopardized everyday?

I'm starting first job soon too and am very nervous. This is the only job I got after 1.5 months' of job hunting. With no previous experiences, I think my only option is to stay. The beginning is always hardest.

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Specializes in Med/Surg, DSU, Ortho, Onc, Psych.

Nursing is very, very hard, especially if you're young, but I really think you should have given it at least 3 months or so. You will never, ever find a bedside nursing job that is all roses and nice patients. It takes time to learn things, to manage your time and also how to manage people.

Don't give up. Apply to other places and don't mention this job. Put it behind you, write if off as a bad experience, and just look foward and move on.

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Specializes in School Nursing.

I understand how disappointing this must be. I did my senior preceptorship on a Tele unit and absolutely loved everything about it. I was estatic when I was hired onto that unit and thought that night shift would be the same supportive, helpful environment that I enjoyed as a student on days. I was wrong. I quit after less than 6 months and it broke my heart, but I have since found my bliss and my niche. Hang in there, it will happen for you too!

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Specializes in Acute Mental Health.

There are so many differnt types of nursing out there. You'll get something that will be much better! It's not an easy job for sure and starting off in ER would have been difficult for me. I'm sorry you're going through this but can understand feeling the relief of not having to go back!

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