It took me three months and two preceptors to come to the conclusion that Med/Surg is the place to start. I had one preceptor who had 30 years experience who just left me on my own all the damn time, not able to answer questions except "thats just the way it has always been done," almost caused me to perform a med error until I refused, got frustrated when she had to help me out, was on the phone to her husband all the time, etc. I ended up with an outstanding preceptor, but the foundation had already been layed. The intial 6 weeks were a waste. The last 6 weeks in the ER was not gonna be enuff time to be prepared to be on your own. The stage had already been set for me to realize the ER is NOT the place at the moment...so I am transfering up to Med/Surg to get my basic background like 70% of nurses say you should.
Why is it that no one wants to take responsibility for -their- actions? This is NOT high school anymore! But for the life of me it always comes back to 'you' being the one at fault. You didn't ask, you didn't burp right, you didn't curl your tongue the right way....And then everyone looks at you like you are the one screwed up when some place doesn't "fit". Why is it that?
Then everyone wants to tell YOU what they think you wanna hear and then gets upset because you tell the truth? AND slam you for it? Oh and don't stand up for yourself! SO it is Catch-22. If you stand up for yourself and let your NM know they things are not going well you are causing problems and if you don't stand up for yourself you are considered weak?!
Why is it that everyone goes behind your back, thinks they know what is right for you, gets involved into your personal affairs, treats you like garbage, etc.? No wonder places have issues finding people to work and there is a nursing shortage! Nothing in life should be this hard. Hell, Marine Corps bootcamp was not this damn hard! But you know what? I'll be darned if I will not become an outstanding nurse!
Without a schedule and waiting to be transfered to Med/Surg!
PS: Seriously contemplating moving to another hospital, but owe time or money for a scholarship