Being a new nurse is causing depression - page 2
I graduated in December and started an internship in January. I had hope that it would be great, I knew I was going to have to work hard, but I also thought there was going to be support. My... Read More
Jul 16, '11Joined: May '10; Posts: 1Wow hunnybaby24 I can relate to your situation my family and bf all live in the city and I am about 2.5 hrs away from them. I live in an apartment with a friend I graduated with but she is about to leave because she has gotten her experience at the hospital. I currently miss my family, friends, etc. I miss everything!!!... The first day I came up here I was crying uncontrollably because its a different environment and I became home sick instantly. I just finished my in class orientation and tomorrow will be my first day on the floor. I am nervous and I already feel overwhelmed because I know it will be a lot. Its been very hard these past days and I know it wont get easier. Just hope i'll be fine!!!! I dont think clinical rotations prepared me for the real world of nursing!!
Jul 16, '11Joined: Jun '11; Posts: 20; Likes: 8I graduated in May and we were given a lecture by a guest speaker telling us to expect many ups and downs over the first year of being a new nurse. She recommended going on a weekend getaway 6 months in. All new nurses go thorugh a transition; we've finished school, don't see our fellow student nurse support system as much, and feel like we should 'get' how to be a great nurse. I was feeling very down at the end of my last semester. That should have been a very happy time! I think recognizing your own feelings is the key. Good luck, I hope you feel better soon!
Jul 19, '11Occupation: RN Joined: May '09; Posts: 61; Likes: 79Just be lucky you all are not in the float pool as a new grad. Yup Float pool different preceptor every night half the time they don't know that I am coming. It is TERRIBLE!!! They all have their own clicks and I cannot seem to penetrate any of them. I have oriented on 10 floors and next week I am on my own. I want to vomit! I have no support I feel like I go and do my best but I am getting in my own head and it is causing me to make mistakes. Like a few weeks ago I left without giving report on a pt!!!! WHO DOES THAT! When I pulled into my driveway my heart hit the ground and I had to call and look really stupid. I recieved a call that I have to have another orientation to that unit because of it and I am dreading showing my face cause I feel so stupid!!!!! I hope this gets better I am not sure I am going to last. Plus it is a teaching hospital and we have all new residents and they look to you for direction and I can barely direct myself, UGGGHHH dreading work tonight for sure!
Jul 20, '11Joined: Apr '10; Posts: 3,383; Likes: 1,923I have been feeling like this. I'm starting my 4th week (out of 6 weeks) of orienting on the unit and although I can say that I truly LOVE my job, I always have those "after shock" moments - "omg, I didn't mention this in report" or "I forgot to do this" etc and I worry AFTER my shift if my patients are okay...I, too, would be asleep and suddenly wake up because of something I didn't pass off in report, or something I forgot to chart..this happened to me the other day. I forgot to chart my patient's pain reassessment after administering morphine. Now I was in there at report time (we do reports at the bedside) and the patient was sleeping comfortably so I wasn't concerned, but I still forgot to document it on the MAR. I went home in the morning (I work night shift), went to sleep...woke up at around noon thinking of this and literally freaking out because I forgot to document it! I'm still brand spankin' new so I hope this goes away with time. I haven't been feeling depressed or anything, but my anxiety levels have been through the roof!
As I mentioned, I'm new - new to nursing, new to my area, new to the hospital system. It's really tough when you don't have the same support system you had while in school - it's hard moving away from everyone and coming to a place where no one really knows your work ethic. I can tell you though, my work has an amazing support system - everyone I have come into contact with have been super helpful and receptive to any questions I have, and everyone always asks if I am doing okay. The other night I was absolutely flustered trying to play catch up, and everyone asked if they could help in any way. One nurse stopped me and ordered me to sit for a moment and told me "if you keep running around like that you're going to pass out! now SIT DOWN" That makes a world of a difference. It also helps to talk to someone - I still keep in touch with my nursing buddies back home and that's who I vent to, or to my fellow coworkers. My husband isn't as helpful lol, but that's because he just doesn't understand where I am coming from. I know this will all get better with time. All of us just need to hang in there