Feeling like a Loser * Dropped all my classes this semester *

FutureRNCris · Nov 22, 2015

That was one of main problems, putting my issues to the side. Yes findinf the problem to everything helped out a lot. And it's going to prevent me from giving up entirely on what I want to do. Thanks for looking out.

FutureRNCris · Nov 22, 2015

Everyone has their opinion and I'm open to anything advice anyone has to tell me.It never started off with me dropping all my classes. I had switch from ASN to BSN in the middle of the semester which made me take one class that was unnecessary. I was also working 2 jobs, because I am my own support system and I had to pay for my classes because my student loan didn't come through til the middle of the semester. I work as a CNA and medication aide tech and both jobs were stressing me, plus thr workload of school. It entirely wore me out and made me go into deep depression, which caused me to drop my 2 classes. I should had explained more in my post, my apologizes. My biggest issue were things that had happened to me last semester and I just carried the weight to this semester. I appericate your advice.

FutureRNCris · Nov 22, 2015

I'm not asking looking to skip the much needed experience I need to finish school. I know what hard work is and Ive been doing it. This semester has just been really bad for me and I was looking for people who have been in a similar situation to seek advice. I understand how hard being a nurse, I am from a generation of nurses. I also know that I'm fit for it. More than anything right now Im tired of being limited at my job. I know the rush to start is not going to help me be a good nurse, but I'm just ready to start. I understand I wasted my loan and thank God it was a small loan, because I worked 2 jobs this semester to try to get as less in debt as I could. It wasn't entirely a waste, because I tried to do my my classes knowing how worn out and overly stressed out I was. I appericate your advice.

FutureRNCris · Nov 22, 2015

Thank you. I was just seeking advice from people who had experienced it and overcame it. I'm my own support system right now and this is my 3rd post from All Nurses. I was looking around to see if people ever had a semester that was really bad where they had to drop their classes. And I see that a lot of people were in worse situations as my own, but still overcame it. So it's giving me motivation to do the same.

FutureRNCris · Nov 22, 2015

Thank you for this comment. I pretty much worn myself out this semester which triggered some depression and really made me lose focus of why I wanted to become a nurse. I overloaded myself with school work and 2 jobs, just to hurry up and finish it, because I have been in school for 5 years. I am going to seek help as soon as I get the resources to do so, but til then I quit my other job and just trying to relax, work out and get myself motivated again for next semester. I appericate your advice and kind words. I think me overly n passionate about wanting to be a nurse overwhelms me a lot. Nursing is something I know is right for me and for the past semesters, up until now, I have been putting in a lot of work.

Linaa · Nov 22, 2015

I'm currently in a similar boat. I had 2 years left in a wonderful BSN program and had to drop school and move back home because I had given up trying to manage my major depression. After moving back I immediately enrolled myself in classes at a local community college, all of which I've had to drop aside of one that I'm probably going to drop, too. Several people did tell me "maybe you should take a break," and I ignored that advice. I've lived with major depression since early childhood but it does get more and more complicated as life does.

I know there are plenty of people that have overcome having to leave nursing or medical school and then returning, succeeding, blah blah. I've searched for posts all over but I don't think anything will satisfy you quite like accomplishments, big or small, of your own. It's awesome that you're working as a CNA... that's experience! I thought I could just take a test with 2years nursing school knowledge but the requirements here involve completion of a CNA program, all $1,000 + (at least all the programs I've found this semester in my area and within a 3-hr radius).

I got really overwhelmed. It drove me over the edge and I hated myself for it because I took college classes along with high school enrollment, where was the anxiety and inability to do daily activities then? I'm trying to reframe and stop the negative thoughts. Something interesting is that in my current class my peers have all completed a degree that has nothing to do with nursing, or are redoing prerequisites like English, micro, etc that they've failed before even eligible to apply to a nursing track. At first I really thought I was in a class of all new college students, but nope, they just carry themselves with enthusiasm and perseverance. Just keep going and don't blame yourself, don't hang the past over your shoulders. Your girlfriend is a major source of support, I wish I listened to my boyfriend more when he told me everything would be okay. I wish you well, it's never too late and your passion will come in handy! Talk to me anytime.

BxRN718, ADN, BSN · Nov 22, 2015

Hi cris,

my advice for you would be not to give up . I had a lot going on before starting RN school which delayed me from getting started. I was the only support for myself having to work and in the beginning of nursing school being diagnosed with cancer, I thought I could handle school and getting chemo followed by radiation but my first cycle I was ill in the hospital for a month. I bombed a few of my pre-reqs which I had As in all I needed was a final which I couldn't complete receiving an F . I took a semester off which my dean advised, coming back stronger than ever completing my RN ADN. I am going for BSN now , didn't do well online and had to abandon that and now finishing at another school which is going great. You will get to your goal if you are persistent and really want to be a nurse. My biggest help was the support from my nursing school family , we helped each other over those hurdles studying our butts off , make those connections they are vital to your success in school .

MrMurdoch · Nov 22, 2015

I'm glad this thread exists. I've changed my major more than I can count by now. I've gotten 2 Associates Degrees, one is basically useless, and I'm going to be dropping university to go back to CC.

The reason I'm dropping it is because the classes are so tough and I realized that I really don't like what my major was. I'm much more interested in Nursing, so I'm planning to go into that with my head held high.

Don't give up on yourself. Everyone has bad semesters, bad grades, and bad days. It's all about trying to do better and use your anger to motivate you.

.Olive. · Nov 22, 2015

Depression and school is a hard mix. I'm struggling with both too. I get it. You've got this. You are going to go back and kick schools butt. I'm glad you listened to yourself. I feel like with depression and the stress of school I've aged a million years

FutureRNCris · Nov 23, 2015

I feel the exact same way. But taking care of yourself is soo important. I find exercising here and there boosts my esteem and drives me to work hard and get through this. You will do great and be a great nurse. We can't let stress take over.

FutureRNCris · Nov 23, 2015

I'm glad this thread exists. I've changed my major more than I can count by now. I've gotten 2 Associates Degrees, one is basically useless, and I'm going to be dropping university to go back to CC.
The reason I'm dropping it is because the classes are so tough and I realized that I really don't like what my major was. I'm much more interested in Nursing, so I'm planning to go into that with my head held high.
Don't give up on yourself. Everyone has bad semesters, bad grades, and bad days. It's all about trying to do better and use your anger to motivate you.

The good thing is that you figured out what you wanted to do and made the decision to stop taking those tough classes. Ive been there too. Ive changed my major more than 3 times those 5 years I was in college. When you truly know what you want to strive for, its the biggest relief. I wish you the best of luck and Im glad my post was here to let you know you're not alone.

FutureRNCris · Nov 23, 2015

Hi cris,
my advice for you would be not to give up . I had a lot going on before starting RN school which delayed me from getting started. I was the only support for myself having to work and in the beginning of nursing school being diagnosed with cancer, I thought I could handle school and getting chemo followed by radiation but my first cycle I was ill in the hospital for a month. I bombed a few of my pre-reqs which I had As in all I needed was a final which I couldn't complete receiving an F . I took a semester off which my dean advised, coming back stronger than ever completing my RN ADN. I am going for BSN now , didn't do well online and had to abandon that and now finishing at another school which is going great. You will get to your goal if you are persistent and really want to be a nurse. My biggest help was the support from my nursing school family , we helped each other over those hurdles studying our butts off , make those connections they are vital to your success in school .

It's stories like yours that make me feel anything is possible. I couldn't imagine having to battle cancer and nursing school. You are proof that hard work will get you far. I'm happy to hear that you received your ASN and going for your BSN. Thank you for you story, it gives me hope to get through what I am going through.