Hi everyone,I am nearing the end of winter quarter; finals are next week. Clinicals were finished last week. I'll be graduating in 12 weeks from the ADN program. I had a doozy of a clinical experience this quarter. I've always loved clinicals and have always had a positive learning experience with all of my instructors. Sure, they've provided criticism, but I've always learned from my mistakes and moved on. I receive good grades and typically have a pretty good attitude. My clinicals were hell this quarter. I'm had an instructor named "Jane Doe" (not really!). Things went well the first few weeks of clinicals until I witnessed her screaming at another student in the med room. My classmate was giving morning report while I was pulling medications. I heard yelling and turned around. Jane Doe was screaming at her; stating, “Shut up! Just shut up! I don’t feel good and your voice is giving me a headache!” When she saw me looking at her (just out of disbelief that this was really happening), she screamed at me, “Hurry up! Your time is up!” From that point forward, my clinical experience was true Hell.Jane Does lashing out became worse at clinicals. She screamed profanities at us by ourselves, in front of the patients, and nursing staff. She would hit and kick the computer. I was once outgoing and excited to try new clinical skills. In Jane Doe’s presence, I quickly became a wall flower in fear of even more verbal abuse. We are taught to do the “5 rights of medication administration.” Myself, as many others have tried to abide by this rule to prevent medication errors. Jane Doe screams at us to hurry up at the pyxis. We are not permitted to double-check our medications at the machine. On four separate occasions there have been potential medication errors because of this. When I tell her there is a mistake, she screams at me and tells me that the error is going on my evaluation. Please keep in mind that these medications have not left the medication room and I’ve been the one to point out the errors before the medications are pulled out of their foil wrappers. This is very unfair and in my opinion, extremely dangerous. It terrified me that I had to report to her that a medication was dispensed wrongly through the non-pyxis cabinet. When I reported a particular error; she had to call down to pharmacy herself as the dose had not been labeled correctly. I was still yelled at, called “stupid”, and if I made one more mistake, that I would be sent home. Again, these are not mistakes that I had made. The medications have not left the medication room. I've been passing medications for well over a year and I’ve never once had a potential mistake until this quarter. We administer IV medications. Again, I had many experiences with this last quarter. Our IV medications are typically due at 10:00 am. I am confident in the procedure. On one particular day, I had my IV medication ready at 9:55 am and waited for 55 minutes for her to assist me. At 10:50 am she told me, “You better hurry up and give this before 11:00 am or we’re going to have a serious problem! And believe me, you DON’T need another problem!” During the rare procedures that Jane Doe allowed us to perform, she often grabs the instruments out of our hands. She makes derogatory remarks throughout the procedure telling us to “hurry up.” On one occasion, she yelled, “Put that penis to the ceiling!” right in the middle of a catherization. The patient was humiliated. She has spoken to me about bariatric (gastric bypass) surgery on several occasions. She states, “You’d feel so much better.” Again, this is deeply humiliating. I know I’m overweight. When I went to her about some issues; she stated, “If you go to the DON, you’ll be labeled as a troublemaker. You won’t get a job reference from her or anyone if you complain." Her and the DON have been friends for 30 some years. Anyway. My evaluation is on Friday. I am terrified. I can't sleep and I've been having palpitations. I feel so sick every time I think about being alone in a room with her. What do you guys do to overcome this stress? I went to the natural herb store yesterday and bought some stress-free incense and herbs, but they are not helping (Hey, I'm willing to try anything once!). I've never been so stressed/sick in my life. Thanks for listening,Dani.