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Speaking of Jesus, He was definitely watching me today I went to the tip (dump) with a trailer full of green waste and just as I got to that section after turning off a busy road I heard a thump, got out of the car and noticed the trailer had come loose from the towball and was only secured by the chain. First time it has happened and I hope it's my last. I reattached it securely, locking it into place and said "Thank you, Jesus you little ripper!" (That and 'you little pearler' are very popular praises in Oz). I just hate to think what would have happened had the trailer chain snapped and ran down the hill into oncoming traffic. I'll be doubly careful next time I use it. That's what I call good luck.

Thanks Grace He's gorgeous.

Just a thought Does your chem text have questions at the back relating to each chapter? I hated the questions but they made me think. When I first started nursing I bought some second hand books and the nclex one became my nursing bible. I swear by them and before when I used to get through I'd do all the n-clex questions during study time. Because it gives you the rationale, it makes it much easier. It really helped. Good luck

Sometimes I think negative people just drown you too. I actually hated going to work when I was a AIN because one girl wasn't ******, actually she was very good to me at the start and actually showed me the ropes properly. When I was studying she'd make remarks about wanting to be an RN so I invited her to go to uni with me and she'd be able to handle it as she had a lot of good sense but that was no go but she'd have a crack at my going for a degree which I had as though I was pulling rank on them. I heard from others she just dragged the whole wing down and made shifts feel even longer. You didn't know if you would have a good day or a bad day. I 've never had time for mind games. At least the devil you know doesn't keep you guessing.

I have a new grandson born today, to love and just adore to help boost my energy through new realms to explore His mother is a midwife and their family has two girls with good manners and cute faces and really gorgeous curls. I have arms that cuddle little ones so why am I left bereft at holding little items instead of surgical instruments I did my job and loved it, despite actions tearing me right apart But I am honest and accountable and I really loved my craft This little one should help me get through my loss some way after all my efforts and attempts got lost to my dismay when life comes down to the most important things we share Thank God for family everyday and those who really care.:heartbeat

Thanks Grace Oz for your message and I will look in then from time to time.:) I have been keeping busy, painted the laundry floor and the sink cupboard and it looks heaps better and doing something physical really helps.

No luck with the competency I was just so nervous and so I will probably look elsewhere for a job. Its heartbreaking but life goes on I guess. Right now I am expecting news of a grandchild. I probably won't be back to allnurses, no use hankering for what we can't have.

i feel that you are going to find many of the remarks quite cruel but nurses are realists and sometimes they see things from a very direct perspective and that is because nursing often leaves little room for error so i can see their point. it doesn't make it easier to take unfortunately. first i would get all my meds sorted out. have you dyslexia? see a linguistics and numeracy professional. you don't give your age so i don't know if you are menopausal or have thyroid issues which can cause many problems. i think you are worn out because you are so anxious and it's almost like you're going over and over the same thing time and time again to no advantage. your health and well being is the most important thing for you immediately. then come the manageable goals, when when you achieve those then take the next step but be realistic. some of us will never set the world on fire and reach our dream destination and the hardest one to convince of that fact is ourselves. take care and be kind to yourself.:heartbeat

Just curious about whether in USA if you are able to take maternity leave at half pay. If you really want to work for a while and know that you want to return to that field of nursing it may be an option for you. Hope it all works out for you. Enjoy your bub.

crb613 hospital politics oh no! ha ha. at least with the messes, the patients always get sorted and cleaned up eventually. i try and stay away from hospital politics. they can get very messy and there aren't many winners.

No matter how careful we are and even when wearing gloves, some of the more incontinent patient's messes aren't contained, have any of you a tried and true remedy for removing the smell. I was told toothpaste is a sure thing and have used it. It was a senior nurse who told me. She passed on a lot of handy hints Bless her.

I used to often wonder what I would do if I saw someone without an eye. I eventually did in an A & E. placement. The patient had taken some medication which made her bleed from both eyes. I had her comfortably settled in a screened cubicle waiting for the doctor, when suddenly as I went to clean her face, she whipped out her artificial eye and I was faced with an empty socket. (I heard later she had a tumour behind the eye). THis night she'd had a reaction to some medication. The doctor ordered her some medication by IV. She was a lovely patient and all I could think of was "Gee that wasn't as bad as I thought" followed by "Hell, she's brave!". Following the meds I removed the cannula when and as directed. I was only a student at the time. I loved that placement though and it gave me a lot of confidence. I think it was probably because I didn't have time to worry about it and was just confronted by it. Sometimes it's the best. Another time I had to put on gloves to fish dentures out of a vomit bag and clean them, that was okay, the patient was dying and the other nurses couldn't be found. Sputum mugs have to be the worst thing of all. I have a strong stomach but they are the pits.

To drive that long each way when gas is so expensive you must be very reliable and I think reliable people are a godsend. They probably love you.

I did the competency and was so nervous right through it. I won't know whether I passed for ten days. I don't have a good feeling but if by chance I have passed, I will be elated. I have learnt though, as much as you love a job, there is life after it finishes. My tarot card say that there is a death in my cards, it doesn't mean particularly someone dying but the end of something special. I hope it doesn't mean nursing for me but since I have done the test I just know there is a weight off my shoulders at least for now. Would you all please cross your thermometers sorry fingers.

Yes it's hellish and the trouble I have is trying to withdraw the plunger and make it look easy. I know exactly where you are coming from and it is equally hard to convince myself that when I hold the ampoule upside down the medication won't come out. It does become easier with practice.