Done with week 3, yay me.

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Still in it.

It's going well.

I'm managing to be casual with the classmates, doing well at keeping self-disclosure in check, I think. I do not talk about myself with patients.

One nurse saw me with a newborn in my arms, and made a comment about how comfortable I looked, and that she wished she had a camera so I could see. Hello, gender generalization alert. I also got another patient who did not want a guy present for c-section. But then had many others that were just fine with me... including a mom new to breastfeeding who when given the option of having me help or having me call her a female nurse, told me it's fine by her if I helped. So I did. Baby latched on fine and she was happy.

I am told I carry myself confidently, and professionally. That's good.

So far no personality clashes. That's good too.

One classmate asked if I was a repeating this class. I responded with "what gives you that impression?" She said she thought the professors were familiar with me, and she saw me handing in my recativate slip for graduation. I did not affirm or deny. Stayed neutral. But then others started talking about who did get kicked out and why, and people being targeted, guys especially, and I had to try hard to keep from spilling my guts out. I just knew it would not do anybody any good for me to tell them my story. Especially me.

I used to want attention from people. Not any more. And I'm the happiest I've ever been.

Oh, and one more thing. For the first time in my life, I'm proud of myself, what I've done, who I am, and what I've conquered to get to this point. It's nice to be able to say that, and mean it.

Update next week. I'm guessing it's OK if I do this here, right? Or would it be better if I just made one post titled weekly updates and keep adding to it, that's if anyone really wants to know. You know me... I like to share.

ND2007

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glad to hear you got back in the saddle.I remember your story from around a year ago.Good luck

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Specializes in Med-Surg.

Sounds like you've learned a lot of lessons and are utilizing them to improve. Kudos.

I would just post another thread, rather than add to this one if you don't mind. :)

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ok then... a post a week it is. Then I get to keep coming up with witty titles. Like next week it'll be "Gone is week four, now 11 more" or something like that.

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Specializes in cardiac med-surg.

glad you are doing very well and things are going well too

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Specializes in ED, ICU, MS/MT, PCU, CM, House Sup, Frontline mgr.

I think you did an excellent job keeping your business private. Although the student may have preferred for you to run off at the mouth (why else would she have recalled you turning in the slip? I do not even notice other students missing a day of class if he/she is not my study buddy), keeping silent was in your best interest given the situation.

I believe that if you had told one of the students what had happened, that student or others may have used the information against you. For example, he/she may have started to treat you poorly and helped to give other students the wrong impression of your character and your abilities despite your current progress.

By the way, congrats on making it this far. I am hanging in there with you. :D

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Specializes in Rehab, Med Surg, Home Care.

Always glad to hear we can chalk up one for the good guys, ND

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Specializes in Cardiac Care.

ND, good for you!

I'm gonna look forward to reading about your experiences every week...

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Specializes in OR Internship starting in Jan!!.

Thanks for sharing -- I'm glad to hear that things are going fairly well for you. I just finished week 4, so we are almost in the same place. Out of my whole class, there are 7 guys out of 50 students.

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Specializes in Neonatal ICU (Cardiothoracic).

I love hearing about another male RN loves having a baby or two in his arms.... I tend to tote around fussy babies while working, and prefer the football hold, which the babies love, and the onlookers gasp at.....

Stephen

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Specializes in Looking at: ER-Trauma-CC.

Congrats on the week... we're just starting week 5 tomorrow and I can't wait until break!

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