I take Vicoden. I have never diverted from work, ever, I have a legal RX for them, every 12 days, been taking them for years. I am also no longer in pain and am addicted to them. I use them for energy /euphoria now. I want to quit. I want help and feel I cant do it alone. However, I am RN, and I fear telling my doctors because I fear that they will report me to the BON. I do not want my license in jeapordy. I just want help getting off these pills, and the thought of the BON being involved * in any way* hinders me from telling any professional that I am addicted. I desperately want to tell my psychiatrist ( depression/anxiety issues) that I just recently began seeing, that I have a problem with vicoden and want help. Obviously, seeing a therapist and NOT telling them that you are addicted to vicodens is counterproductive...and I wont get the help I desperately need, for this, or my depression.
I guess I want advice on what to do. I know its impossible for anyone to know for sure, but do you think a professional (doc) has an obligation to report a healthcare profesional to their respective licensing authorities because of this? This is my only reason why I am still on these pills. I cant do it alone, but I will not risk being reported to the BON. Again, I never diverted, never obtained them illegally.* Are my fears realistic??? Can you tell me what you think? PLEASE?* Does everyone have to know my problem simply because I am a nurse?
As far as being "impaired" at work, well, I have been on them so long that they no longer affect me, so I am not impaired while working. Please , advise me.... I just want to tell my therapist SO BAD:crying2: so I can begin to heal.....but I also cant risk my livelihood ( my job)
Thanks.... in advance....