...........and what is your purpose in this world? Lately, constantly, I feel like I have no purpose, that all life is is getting up and going to work and drudgery with very little pleasure. I ask my husband, "Why do people continue to do it, get up, go to work, hate their life?". He says that alot of people are unhappy but "you gotta work". He wants kids. I think "more drudgery" or "someone to intensify the drudgery". Life is so crappy. Don't you all feel like that alot of the time, like WTH!! are you doing here and what is the purpose of doing it over.. and over... and over ...every freaking day, for the rest of your life? I feel like all my life is about is working to pay off bills that I was foolish enough to incur and finding a professional field that will help me pay those bills and make me feel like I am a success in this world. And that's it. That is the whole pursuit of my life.
Now, if you looked in on my life, you probably would think that it doesn't look all the crappy. But it is to me. And I know that many people have had much more adversity to deal with in their lives and I wonder how they do it. What gives you the hope to go on even when it sucks and there is no apparant light at the end of the tunnel??
I can totally empathize with you. The part that really struck me was your comment about children. As a very, very happy childfree woman by choice, I could just puke over the pressure to have children from our society. There should be ZERO pressure. More women need to realize that having a child is NOT the end to and problems and the key to eternal happiness. To be honest with you, when I listen to my coworkers whining and moaning throughout the shift, 95% of the time it seems to be about there children. The child is sick, causing problems at school, wanting this or that, making work difficult regarding flexibility with hours, financially draining them...the list is endless. I hear this garbage day after day after day and it makes me even happier that I didn't go down that road.
I am not a child hater or child molester ( ignorant, yet common beliefs from people that have children and can't believe that I don't want them). I have a wonderful loving family, terrific nieces and nephews, an amazing husband, lots of pets, oodles of toys and travel around the world. I have lots of hobbies and stay extremely busy.
Nursing can burn you out. Take some time off from it. If you need to, just relax at home. Eat some chocolate, get your hair, exercise or do whatever you find calming. Take some time and reflect on the profession. If you feel Nursing is what will make you happy then continue on, but remember, it is never too late to change careers!
Specializes in Med-Surg, Geriatric, Behavioral Health.
Sometimes, we may not realize our purpose until it is already completed...something to consider as well. Sometimes, our purpose is not just one neat, little package where one is able to say..."My purpose is....". Sometimes, our purpose may be multifaceted when it becomes known.
Wanted to update all of you that helped me with this..........
I saw a psychologist and she did say that I was depressed and told me that in her opinion I should seek medication ( strong family history). I told her how I felt about meds, but she did tell me she thought they might help immensely in my case.
I have another appt with her next week and I also have one with a pscyh for meds in a couple weeks. That was the soonest I could get in! So, I hope I can get in a better place quick because I have no intention of quitting school right now...........although I do think I will have to quit my job for Block 1. I think it might be for the best for a while until I adjust to all the new stress of NS.
Thank again to all of you! I am on the road to a better outlook (hopefully!):)
CFwoman
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I can totally empathize with you. The part that really struck me was your comment about children. As a very, very happy childfree woman by choice, I could just puke over the pressure to have children from our society. There should be ZERO pressure. More women need to realize that having a child is NOT the end to and problems and the key to eternal happiness. To be honest with you, when I listen to my coworkers whining and moaning throughout the shift, 95% of the time it seems to be about there children. The child is sick, causing problems at school, wanting this or that, making work difficult regarding flexibility with hours, financially draining them...the list is endless. I hear this garbage day after day after day and it makes me even happier that I didn't go down that road.
I am not a child hater or child molester ( ignorant, yet common beliefs from people that have children and can't believe that I don't want them). I have a wonderful loving family, terrific nieces and nephews, an amazing husband, lots of pets, oodles of toys and travel around the world. I have lots of hobbies and stay extremely busy.
Nursing can burn you out. Take some time off from it. If you need to, just relax at home. Eat some chocolate, get your hair, exercise or do whatever you find calming. Take some time and reflect on the profession. If you feel Nursing is what will make you happy then continue on, but remember, it is never too late to change careers!