Disappointed in myself, could use some pointers...

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Hi, everybody!

I just finished up a semester and I am really upset with myself because I made a C. I know, C = RN. But I really tried to get an A this semester. I studied extra, I changed up my habits, I even tried teaching others. But I still got a freakin' C.

To help you see this from my perspective, I was the kid everybody hated because I just showed up and got A's. I did my homework in class, I didn't study, and if I made less than a 98 on a test, the teacher made a mistake when writing it. My genetic make-up just allowed me to do well in a school environment. (Sorry if this sounds arrogant, but I was just good at school.)

Fast forward 20ish years and now I feel like an idiot. My grades go up and down. Well, mostly down. I failed a test for the first time in my life. (And that's saying something, considering I've spent over 20 years in school all together.) My self-esteem is mostly based on my intelligence, and that really hurt me. I have tried everything I know how to do to raise my grades. I talked with my teacher, my advisor, my fellow students, changed how I study, and added study time. All of that and I actually got WORSE grades.

So, I guess what I want is to whine a little (which is helping me feel better, BTW). And get some pointers on how to either get better grades or how to accept that I am not going to make A's.

I will take any advice and suggestions at this point. Criticism is welcome, too, if anyone deems it necessary.

Thanks to everyone in advance!

Wow! Thank you so much everyone!

There are so many good suggestions here. Thank you all!!

@mandaluz - Thank you for the compare/contrast idea. I haven't tried that yet and it sounds like it will help me.

@arab_rider - Unfortunately, I have a hard time studying in groups. I find other people very distracting. I like the NCLEX review idea very much. I did some Saunders questions before my final exam and I got a high enough grade to raise my average to a C.

@kylee_adns - Thanks for the case study suggestion. We had some in Fundamentals and they did help me. I'm glad of the reminder.

@morte - I've tried some self-hypnosis, but it hasn't stuck yet. I think you are right about my subconscious, though. Sometimes I get mad because I have to study to learn anything these days and I want to learn easily like I used to.

@MidnightAzalea - OMG! I looked up adult ADD and it sounds JUST LIKE ME. You are a lifesaver. I have an appointment with my PCP about something else and I will discuss this with him when I go.

@iluvpatho - I like the practice test idea very much. Like I was telling arab_rider, I did a bunch of NCLEX review questions before my final and I think it helped me.

@DolceVita - You may be right about stress affecting me. I have had a few issues in my home life recently that have been fairly hard to deal with and I think it is taking it's toll on my concentration.

@BabyLady - You are absolutely right that I had it easy in school and never had to develop coping mechanisms. I didn't really have anything handed to me, but I never had to struggle, either. I don't know about my standing in the class, though, we don't have posted grades anymore. I know a few people got A's on tests, but I don't know anyone's final grade except mine. Maybe I'm not doing that badly in comparison. (I hope!) Thank you for all of your input!

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OMG what a sweet thank you....it was like the Oscars!

Good luck. Have a rest and recharge.

That may be a dumb saying but I don't think the op needs to hear that. She sounds like a good student who is or was struggling with one class.

I think you just need to get past this and let it go, so you got a C big deal. You passed so just go on to teh next semester and try to figure out how to study better. One thing I started trying to do because I can't read through all the material, is just try to focus on the many power-points and what I do is make up my own practice questions or tests.

And I agree with you. It's directed towards the ones who get a C and build on it with the mindset of "well it doesn't really matter as long as I get a 42 on the final to get a C in the class, it's ok." Or the ones who say "I don't care about Med/Surg, I'm only working ICU and L&D when I graduate..so a C won't matter.

Quick update:

Thanks to everyone for all of your advice! I finally got an A this semester. By one tenth of a point, LOL!!

To MidnightAzalea, thank you again for suggesting adult ADD. I went to my PCP and he gave me some test. Apparently I scored pretty high, because he put me on meds immediately. Although getting used to taking meds has been hard, I am now able to study and I can focus a lot more while I am taking tests. So, THANK YOU!!!

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