I must be getting better with the shame thing that caused me to stay away from nursing for over five years after my license suspension was up.
I applied for a nurse case manager (MDS) position in a fancy schmancy nursing home in my area. This has been my specialty since starting my 5 years of license probation 4 years ago. I am excellent at what I do.
I applied the first day the job was posted, was very upbeat, sold myself well in an initial meeting with the administrator and director of nursing. I was expecting a call back to set up a more formal interview.
Well, the next day, the director of nursing calls me and says in a very cold tone that because of what it says on my states "Department of Health and Human Services website, " they will not consider me for the position. He said that if I were the only one available and they were absolutely desperate, they might consider me, but that they had other candidates. I said what about when my probation is over? He said they would "judge that on a case by case basis."
He seemed almost offended that I dared to apply at their facility. I was not dishonest. I filled out the application fully and truthfully and would have revealed all details of my probation if it seemed they were truly interested in hiring me.
Anyway, my point in all this is that I didn't feel like a worthless little worm, as he appeared to see me. I found it puzzling that someone would take that attitude about a person who has called in daily for random urine drug screens for well over 4 years now. Of course, he probably has no idea of the flaming hoops I have had to jump through to have a valid nursing license.
He is just ignorant I guess.
I am tempted to send an email thanking him and his administrator for considering me for the position, which would include a sincere thank you to the director of nursing for his candor. You see, I had previously applied at this facility and another one owned by the same company and couldn't figure out why I just got the generic turn down letter in the mail without even an interview. In fact, I had called an HR person at one of the facilities to get feedback on what the problem had been. All she would say was: "We have applicants who are a better fits that we are pursuing." I saw the jobs in both these cases reposted within days of being told that more desirable candidates had applied.
Addicts aren't the only ones who lie, so I am glad the reason I was turned down was told to me so I need not waste my time applying with them in the future.
It has taken a LONG time for me to get to this point, but I am glad I rarely feel like I am going to die of shame any more. With job hunting, shame can crop up but it is nothing like it was when I first had my license disciplined in the Summer of 2000.
so I am glad the reason I was turned down was told to me so I need not waste my time applying with them in the future.