I am almost done with the program (graduate in May), I had managed up until this point to not ever have a really bad day at clinicals. But yesterday was so bad I went and cried in the bathroom. My nurse was from the float pool and she and I didn't click at all. She couldn't believe I had made it this far in Nursing school and not having seen anyone change a triple lumen dressing or hep lock one. Yeesh, sorry, it's kind of been the luck of the draw with pts, Sorry I hadn't done one but at least I was eager to try. In our clinical rotations we only spend about 4 days on a certain floor before we are moved to a different floor or hospital. So I wasn't sure where some of the supplies where throughout the day, she wouldn't tell me where they where, she made me go look all over the unit for them. OK I get that, I would need to find them myself if I was working. She was just not that great of a teacher, I was going to change another Pt's dressing after I did the triple lumen dressing change when she decided to do it herself. I would have done it. I didn't think I was taking that long. It just didn't go well. To make me feel like an even bigger moron, she told my instructor about the how she couldn't believe that I had made it to 4th semester and not seen one. I just felt like I could do nothing right, I was slow and I was pulling out the wrong meds form the pyxis (5 rights are what prevented an error). Just about everything I could do wrong with this nurse happened and it just got worse as the day went on. I kept thinking, I am still in school, still trying to learn! Oh well, just wanted vent, and wallow in my own self pity. I will strive to do better next time!
