Why Am I Putting Myself Through This????

[dfk]

i was looking for an apartment yesterday, and came across a building manager who also happened to be a 4th yr -ologist at the same facility where i will be attending school (oddly enough !).

he said that the instructors are going to tear "us" apart, and don't be misguided with the friendly interview facades. he then said that even the anesthesia docs don't even bust the gas residents' chops like that.

i was somewhat taken aback..

he then proceeded to tell me not to worry tho, that it's a great program, and nothing comes easy that's worth it, for which i agreed.

and so my ambivalence returned.

i don't know if anyone has felt the same way, but i don't start for a month and have been having thoughts as to what the heck am i doing this for, and many many what if's, especially after talking with the doc.

i'm sure this will pass, but i can't help not get this out of my mind.

any friendly 'there-there's' out there are greatly welcomed...

thanks !

[japaho41]

I always keep in mind that when learning new things that I will make a mistake or do something that is not exactly as someone else does it. I think the best teachers are not the ones that are out to get you but those whom willing to help you to acheive your goals. I think in this business we will always come across someone who is out to belittle us while they are power trippin'. Keep a few layers of tough skin on board, be a yes person and bite your lip when you feel like speaking back to those that have the power to change your dream in a heartbeat. Some nurses have not figured this out yet and may not ever, those of which may not be advanced practice material.

[Brian_SRNA]

Good luck with starting your programs. I dont start till January 07, so I have not benn through the jitters yet. Best of luck.

Brian

[apaisRN, RN, CRNA]

It's a long haul. The sheer length of it is my nemesis. 16 months to go.

[darienblythe79]

Ok, I am feelin' the hurt. I have left my husband several miles away to so this, but he is being so great about this. I start on Monday, and I admit I am really excited to start this journey. I am sad to start it alone though. I know it will be worth it, but dang. I can't wait to meet my classmates and find others in similar sitations! Sit down, shut up, and HOLD ON!!!!!