Why Am I Putting Myself Through This????

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Specializes in Critical Care, Emergency.

i was looking for an apartment yesterday, and came across a building manager who also happened to be a 4th yr -ologist at the same facility where i will be attending school (oddly enough !).

he said that the instructors are going to tear "us" apart, and don't be misguided with the friendly interview facades. he then said that even the anesthesia docs don't even bust the gas residents' chops like that.

i was somewhat taken aback..

he then proceeded to tell me not to worry tho, that it's a great program, and nothing comes easy that's worth it, for which i agreed.

and so my ambivalence returned.

i don't know if anyone has felt the same way, but i don't start for a month and have been having thoughts as to what the heck am i doing this for, and many many what if's, especially after talking with the doc.

i'm sure this will pass, but i can't help not get this out of my mind.

any friendly 'there-there's' out there are greatly welcomed...

thanks !

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dfk,

there are many types of personalities that you will encounter during your education. many of the MDs/CRNAs/residents will be great teachers and amicable, many will not. the advice I have received from new grads and current students is to be open to learn and humble.....and keep any wisecracks to yourself :roll

good luck,

schway

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Just keep thinking about how far you've already come and what an honor it is to be in your position. Remember your reason(s) for wanting to become a CRNA and don't let any doubts creep in. Good luck to you!

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I am about to enter clinicals like you. Don't worry. There are all types out there. Just be thankful for the good ones, know that you don't ever want to be like the bad ones. The more our "chops" get busted the better it'll make us anyway!

Good luck!

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You are doing this because you have worked hard and managed yourself to get you to the point where you are looking for a place to live since you are starting school in a few weeks.

Opinions will be plentiful and there will probably be many things you will hear about (classes, professors, etc..) that will cause you to feel this way, again. Dont let any of that stop you from securing your endeavors.

Just do it.

Besides, would you want to go back and give this opportunity up?

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Specializes in post surgical, tele, icu.

might i ask the school?

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Specializes in Critical Care, Emergency.

thanks for the input everyone..

i'm sure it'll all work out, and that i'm not alone with these feelings !

today, i can't wait to begin...

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Sounds kinda like nursing school, right? Modified boot camp. Remember the first time you passed meds as a nursing student and you were grilled and regrilled :trout: .

You have worked hard to be where you are. Butterflies are normal. Focus yourself and your energy on making the best of your education, not in worrying over the hearsay.

Good luck and keep us posted!

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As my best friend always says "This too shall pass, and what won't kill you will make you stronger" I think you should pursue your dream and not let anything get in your way! We are all behind you!

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They can't be any worse than a Marine Corps Drill Instuctor, right? ERR....

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Specializes in ER/SICU.

I always try to remember something an ER doc used to tell me on those F'd up nights with 20 people in the waiting room, 27 beds full, with people in the hallway and 3 ambulances coming. "just remember they can eat ya""

And like somebody else said I havent seen anyone in the OR yet get chewed on like we did in basic training.

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i was looking for an apartment yesterday, and came across a building manager who also happened to be a 4th yr -ologist at the same facility where i will be attending school (oddly enough !).

he said that the instructors are going to tear "us" apart, and don't be misguided with the friendly interview facades. he then said that even the anesthesia docs don't even bust the gas residents' chops like that.

i was somewhat taken aback..

he then proceeded to tell me not to worry tho, that it's a great program, and nothing comes easy that's worth it, for which i agreed.

and so my ambivalence returned.

i don't know if anyone has felt the same way, but i don't start for a month and have been having thoughts as to what the heck am i doing this for, and many many what if's, especially after talking with the doc.

i'm sure this will pass, but i can't help not get this out of my mind.

any friendly 'there-there's' out there are greatly welcomed...

thanks !

I think all of us starting our programs this month feel about the same way......A family friend of mine whom is a CRNA and has taught in the past, told me to always remember that things are much better in 24 hrs, just to give everything one day!! Not sure what to think of it, but I'm sure I will be calling him and saying aaahhh, I get it!!! Anyways, don't stress, that takes up too much time. I'm naive, but I am quite excited about this new adventure!!! Good luck....

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