Medical retirement - inactive too soon
- 11I was so pleased to find a Retired/Inactive Nurses forum here.
I reached a point with stage iv breast cancer that prevented my responsibly caring for patients, but was fortunate enough to work for a flexible agency and I was allowed to work with students and interns by meeting with them at my home and using secure VPN computer technology so I could sign off on their charts, etc.
Inevitably, the disease reached a point where I was no longer reliable enough to do that. It feels so bad. I understand why the clinical director asked me to take medical retirement. It was the only reasonable and responsible decision, but it still just hurts.
I am fortunate enough to have a second, non-nursing skill set so I can still support myself, but it just hurts.
Aside from the hurt, I miss my practice. I loved working with people who have chronic psychiatric conditions, and I loved (most of!) my colleagues. I miss it so much.
I'd love to hear from other retirees about how you deal with this, if you experience it, too. Thank you so much.
- 6Oct 19, '13 by Esme12 Senior ModeratorWelcome to AN! The largest online nursing community!
((HUGS)) I am so sorry you are going through this!
We float all around all the forums....I mentor the nursing students. Give point of view here and there.
I am disabled from a rare neuro-muscular disorder....I miss working so much it hurts...a lot.
- 4Oct 19, '13 by Esme12 Senior ModeratorAN saves me. I would be stark raving MAD if I didn't have a place to go to stretch my mind. We have our APN forums with some lively debates!!!! and practice discussions....we have a student forum there as well.......look around...... Advanced Practice Nursing
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- 2Oct 19, '13 by kcochraneWelcome and thanks for sharing. I have been on this site since I was waiting to hear whether or not I was accepted into LPN school...now almost done with my BSN. You will be such a support on this site and hope we can support you back. Glad you joined up.
- 7Oct 19, '13 by cancermomRetired, your situation is very similar to my own. I was diagnosed with renal cancer in Dec. 2012, had a radical nephrectomy in Jan 2013. Initially things looked good and was readying to go back to work when scans showed mets to the lungs and sacrum. Started radiation in April 2014 and oral chemotherapy. Return to work was delayed while the treatments started. All the while I was very lucky to have saved over 450 hrs of time and had both short and long term disability. Recovery from radiation and side effects of chemo left me weak, fatigued and depressed. In August of 2013 I began with hip pain again and was pretty sure I had further bone mets (sometimes it really sucks to be a nurse and "know" things before the MD tells you. I am now on long term disability and had to "retire" since my medical leave finally finished. At 49 I feel too young to be retired, however this last round of chemo and radiation has really taken its toll. I am struggling right now with even getting out of bed and eating. The days are so long while my husband works and my 2 kids are at school. I have a tremendous support system but find it hard to ask for help when I am normally the caregiver. This weekend I vowed to turn this around. With the help of some meds, a chewing-out by my hubby and parents, I am determined to get strong enough to quit feeling like a burden. Perhaps your post was timed exactly for me today! I have been a long time lurker on this site and joined about a month ago. I think I will use my extra time as there is so much of it to share my experiences with others. Thanks for your post.