What a day...and it's only 1pm.
I thought today would be an easy one. I got to sleep in (sleeping in for me is waking up around 9:30am; I'll take whatever I can get with no complaints), I had a decent breakfast, and I got some serious math work done in preparation for a quiz coming up. I'm trying to stay motivated and on top of my work, but just when I least expect it....more doom and gloom.
I'm speaking with my boyfriend of three years (yes ladies, 3, and I'm getting impatient
), and he tells me that he was speaking with a family member of his about my returning to school to become a nurse. This family member happens to be a nurse. She proceeds to tell him that nursing is a great field with great opportunities. However, her friend was rejected from nursing school last year, and got in by the skin of her teeth this year. She goes on to say just how hard nursing school is, how she couldn't hold a job, how failing one test can get you kicked out in most schools. As he told me these things, I could just feel the anger and frustration build up. I was already dealing with math this morning(my worst subject, but I'm cuttin' it), and now I have to hear all this. It was like she was warning me through my boyfriend about nursing school, like she didn't believe I would make it. I think this was just the icing on the cake. Conversations like this have been occuring between me and my friends and family for the past 2 months. I'm tired, y'all. I can't take this anymore.
I'm tired of being warned. I have done my research. Anyone who knows me at all knows when I get onto something, I'm on it! I research and research. I find the good and the bad, and I make my decision. Well folks, I've made my decision. I will say it again: doing something well doesn't mean you were meant to do that thing. Yes, I can sing. Yes, I've trained and performed and traveled and all that, and I'm good at it, but THAT IS NOT WHAT I WANT TO DO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I'm tired of being told I was born to do this and do that when that is not what my heart is telling me. Being a nurse is a new concept to me, but I originally went to college to become a doctor. Music kinda swept me off my feet for a minute, but had I been a smarter person then, I would have stuck with my biology degree and sang on the side. This is what I plan to do once nursing school is over. I finally feel myself coming full circle, and I have always been up for a good challenge. I know I can't allow people to discourage me, but it's so hard to believe in yourself when those around you are telling you why you shouldn't
do something. I guess I should tell them to shut up.
I left school in 2002 with 107 credits! My goal is to complete my degree this summer(I need only one course to graduate, and that's another story for another time), and enter a second degree program this fall or january of 2008. Yes, I know it will be hard...very hard, but I know I can cut it. I've done it before, and I can do it again. I just wish my friends and family were more supportive. Sorry for the long post. Thanks for listening.