I'm in a terrible situation that I fully take responsibility for. I recently changed my career goals from wanting to be a pediatrician to a nurse because I was overwhelmed by the chemistry, physics, etc, and I felt like being a doctor would be a huge responsibility that I wasnt sure I could handle.
So, I've been taking my nursing prerequisites, but I've messed up big time! I'm hysterical because I cheated in both anatomy classes and my nutrition class. All of these classes are online, and I took advantage of the fact that they're online and cheated on all the tests. In my first anatomy class all the answers were on quizlet so I just memorized those. I am/was taking so many credits that I didn't leave time to study so I resorted to cheating to do well. I know this is wrong and I know I am capable of doing well without cheating but the pressures of doing well and not failing reallygot to me and now I feel terrible about myself. I feel like I'm not going to succeed in nursing school because I have grades that I didn't earn with my own knowledge. I know I could've gotten amazing grades if I did not cheat because I've never cheated so much in my life before. I've always been an A/B student (without cheating) and I just cheated myself and feel like I wasted my time in college.
Please help, what should I do? Should I retake the classes or just start studying everything over again over the summer/winter breaks to make up for the lack of knowledge I gained due to my cheating? I'm hysterical and have anxiety and feel depressed and I just made my life worse! My fears of failure and lack of confidence in myself pushed me into doing exactly into what I was afraid of