It seems like I am asking questions almost everyday, but honestly no one gave give better advice and look at perspective on this issue than you guys and I thank you all for that.
I am a new grad, finished December and have been blessed enough to have interview for two jobs and offered both positions; they are at the same hospital. Here is the dilemma:
Position 1] Its a med/surg Oncolog floor where the RN to Patient ratio is 1:5. In this floor I did my preceptorship in my last semester and honestly enjoyed it very much. I met the Manager of this unit while doing my precetorship and mentioned my interest in working in that unit once I was done and passed my boards. I gave two updates to the manager after preceptorship via email on how I had graduated and also passed my boards. I went to see him after this and again mentioned my interest; which as I said is a true and honest answer. I applied for the position and consequently was invited for an interview last week; the interview went well as I mentioned why I would like to work in this floor. Manager a very nice genuine person.
Position 2] Its a Step-Down ICU where the RN to Patient ratio is 1:3. As all new grads, I applied to several positions in the hospitals, this one being one of them since I like critical care [ICU/ER]. I was blessed enough to as well have a job interview for this position a day after the oncology one. The manager and assistant manager interviewed me and it was a great interview; amazing manager/assist. manager really made me feel at home as well. Yesterday AM I got a call from this manager offering me the position and as a new grad with no other job offers I took it and was super happy!! Working here, I will be taking the same classes ICU RNs take which include, [ACLS, TNCC, Ventilatory Support, etc] which is honestly fascinating as this will only make me a better more prepared RN.
THE ISSUE: Yesterday PM the manager from the oncology floor called me to offered me the position and how he had really enjoyed the interview and looked forward to having me as part of his team. I told him how I had accepted the offer from Stepdown ICU because I did not know if he was going to offer me this job. He understood and we left it at that; he said that he was glad he would see me around the hospital.
Today: He called me again this afternoon telling me how he had called HR and complained how at least HR would have given me time for him to tell me about the offer and for me to actually have a choice and think about what I wanted. He also mentioned how he didnt consider me a person that would simply sweet talk to get a job offer and that he truly believed I had a passion for oncology. He told me that HR would call me tomorrow and tell me that I had a choice between the two, rather than just go with my first offer [Step Down ICU]. He again, mentioned how he wants to have me in his floor.
ME: I am feeling very confused. I honestly feel that the Step Down ICU floor is more promision as I will be taking the above courses, plus the nurse to patient ration is 1:3. The thing that makes me feel upset and bad is that I dont want the oncology manager to feel as if I only used him and tried to be nice and attentiive just to get a job in his floor, because in reality that was not the case; I like oncology, but I like the idea of how StepDown ICU works and the advancement of knowledge. My precetor whom works in the oncology floor is moving out of the city in about 3 months and told me that if she was me, she would go with the stepdown icu as she feels the oncology floor is not too ideal for a new grad, as the veteran staff are not too compliant.. She also said that if she was to stay in this city, she would move out of the floor and go to stepdown icu or a different floor. Now, I dont see why she would lie to me, especially that she will be leaving. As mentioned, I am 60/40 on Stepdown ICU because of what I mentioned, but the thought of the oncology manager thinking I am disloyal and just a talker to obtain a position makes me feel bery bad.. I also think it would not be very professional to tell the stepdown manager that I am going to a different floor knowing she was the first to offer the job.
What would you do?? How would I tell the oncology floor manager my reasons for chosing stepdown?
Thanks in advance for your time and advice..