Hi everyone, I have been here before, but I finally decided to make an account cause I am just so frustrated and I wanted to just let out all the bile before my family comes home and I unleash it on them...
I am annoyed. I am annoyed with myself for thinking that working hard, making the honor roll, joining the honors society, getting involved with school activities, and polishing up my resume till its really good was enough to get me noticed by HR. I am annoyed that I thought that putting on a grey suit and putting on the approriate amount of makeup, having copies of all pertinent documents and putting on my best "hire me" show was enough to make recruiters interested in possibly setting me up for interviews for their floors. I thought that being intelligent and personable, loving nursing, being good at it, having great references, preceptorships, externships, a BSN from a highly regarded school would be enough if I interviewed well and have a good resume. Hah. Oh, and getting the interview? Im thinking about forgetting nursing and turning professional stalker.
I am annoyed with nursing friends who were lucky enough to get hired quicker than I was for "suggesting" more locations to apply for. I know they are only trying to help, but what do they think? I havent been trying hard enough? I have applied to pretty much every facility within 30 miles and I dont even drive! Ill worry about that if I have the opportunity to worry it. It would be more helpful to just sympathize with me and say they know its tough out there.
Also annoyed with all those non-nursing folks (and even some people involved in healthcare!!) asking me "You havent gotten a job yet? But there is such a nursing shortage!!" At which point I have to explain to them that there is in fact a nursing shortage only because people are refusing to hire nurses, especially new ones, lest they think I am an idiot or a loser for not being hired.
And I am kind of annoyed with watching the numbers go up on the scale as I sit home all day in front of the computer and eat. And eat. Oh, and sleep. Good times.
If youve made it this far thanks for listening to my rampage! I promise I usually am a normal and well adjusted human being but I guess some days you wake up on the wrong side of the bed...heres to a better day tomorrow!