Thank you all for your advice. It is greatly appreciated.
As far as hospice being a possibility, it stems from a few things. 1) After nursing school
, a few of my school friends applied to hospice and were offered jobs. Every now and again I see my school buddies and they just rave positive about their job. I hear over and over again how much they love their job. I have to admit, I am envious. The reasons that they love their job vary, but the overall consensus is that they love helping families go through that difficult transition. They feel a sense of honor knowing that that they helped a dying patient die with dignity and pain free. That's basically the jist that I hear whenever we talk about their job as hospice nurses. Now I have also heard the other side of being a hospice nurse. How it can be absolutely emotionally draining, the hours can be long and extensive, the never ending paperwork, the constant back and forth with families and the inter-family politics. Just recently we hired a nurse who on the floor who just left hospice because she was just burned out on hospice.
2) I have always been interested in hospice nursing. Even when I was a nursing student I strongly considered doing hospice house as my first RN job. However, I was discouraged by some professors because they told me I should have acute care experience first. We all know that story. In the hospital I have worked with hospice patients and their families and saw firsthand how wonderful hospice can be for patients and their families. The hospice nurses I know are wonderful and are truly an asset to the nursing profession.
I agree that there can be worlds of difference between hospitals. I do enjoy acute care. I love learning new things and new skills. Even with 2 years experience, I find that more and more there is a never ending abundance of new skills and concepts to be learned. I love teaching people and helping patients and families understand biological processes of diseases and the treatments that go along with those processes.
I am considering float nursing because I am so over unit politics. This is part of my problem. Our floor is difficult. The acuity on that floor should really be a PCU level. Plus everyone on that floor is unhappy. Everyone. Including our director. That makes for a toxic work environment. Everyone is so busy, especially on day shift, that we find it difficult to help out our team members. We are being told by our director that we aren't working hard enough, our scores went down, work harder with less. It is beyond frustrating. I am hoping with float nursing that I can just go into work and do my job and not get caught up in the floor drama. If not float nursing, then I was considering switching gears all together and going onto a cardiac floor. Just so I could learn more and get a different perspective.
This has not been easy. I have made the decision to leave the floor which I know is the right decision. Other nurses who have left our floor I still keep in contact with and they tell me over and over again, it's not nursing, it's that floor. They all seem happier now that they have moved on and taken different positions within the hospital.
As far as not burning my bridges, I plan on leaving on good terms. Even though my experience has not been easy, I am still grateful for the opportunity. I was hired as a new grad with no experience. My director gave me a shot to earn experience and make a living. That is something I can not thank her enough for doing. So when I do resign, I will state in my resignation that I do desire to be PRN and hopefully she can still keep me on.
Again, thank you all for your advice. It does help reading about others experiences and just knowing I am not the only one going through this. Thank you.