Nurses struggling with mental illness - page 29

I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major... Read More

  1. by   grannynurse FNP student
    Quote from zoeboboey
    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{Sarabasedis}}}}}}}}}}} Can you get a state sponsored insurance? Like here, we have "MaineCare". Perhaps if you call your local crisis hotline, or department of human services, they can steer you to some health insurance. Also, if you sign up with your local hospital, often you can get "uncompensated care" which is based on income (with mine, the outpatient services are connected to the inpatient so those are covered, too).
    Unfortunately, a great number of states have only Medicaid. And a good number of us have income that disallows us from that system.

    Grannynurse
  2. by   DogloverLFC
    I am a nurse that has major depression and ptsd. i have been having alot of flashbacks memories lately. i realize i have lived in denial most of my life and making poor judgements, including in my nursing career. Poor judgements that caused me to make mistakes and lose jobs. I am struggling with trusting myself to continue to work because of my mental illness. There isn't anything else I am qualified to do. I can't seem to let go of my mistakes and am obsessed with thinking about them. Can anyone out there help me with some advice or offer hope, own experiences?
  3. by   sarabasedis
    Dear Doglover,
    I have also struggled with poor judgements, anxiety disorder which caused me to make mistakes, which caused more anxiety...You may be obsessing over your past. You have to let go of it. Remember the saying: The past is history the future is a mystery, the present is a gift from God, which is why it is called a present.
    By engaging in obsessive thinking, you are creating a treadmill for yourself. You are not a victim, or a survivor, but a wonderful, intelligent human being ( see what I learned in IOT?)
  4. by   DogloverLFC
    Thanks for your reply. I have been beating myself up because of mistakes and lost jobs. I have had a really hard time in nursing. Some of it has been political because I don't know how to handle myself with people. I end up making a mistake and being the scapegoat for others. Although I do take resposibililty for the mistakes I have made. I live in fear that if my coworkers knew or maybe they already do I would not have a job. I basically do a good job. My illness has affected my judgement and this year I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. Since I have been taking the synthroid my thinking is becomiing clearer all the time. I wonder if all of my life my thyroid level affected my thinking because I have made some pretty poor judgements and done things I am not proud of. I do realize now, although it is not an excuse but a reason that my depression, ptsd and hypothyroidism did not help my thought processes and caused me to make some pretty poor judgements.
  5. by   sarabasedis
    I am involved in a divorce from my x. My job related stress led me to go into intensive outpatient therapy. I am not working. The manic depression I was experiencing caused me to spend all my cash, so now I am desperately trying to hold onto my house. My divorce lawyer says that my x's lawyer thinks I am trying to manipulate the system by "faking it" since I am a college educated woman while my x only has 3 yrs of college and earns alot of cash. I am about to lose my health care benefits.
    Do I take care of my health? Do I stay in IOT or try to work perdiem for a while just to earn cash. I am going to shoot myself in the foot if I work in order to pay the bills even if I feel I am not well enough to work? AAAAHHH!!!
  6. by   sarabasedis
    Quote from sarabasedis
    I am involved in a divorce from my x. My job related stress led me to go into intensive outpatient therapy. I am not working. The manic depression I was experiencing caused me to spend all my cash, so now I am desperately trying to hold onto my house. My divorce lawyer says that my x's lawyer thinks I am trying to manipulate the system by "faking it" since I am a college educated woman while my x only has 3 yrs of college and earns alot of cash. I am about to lose my health care benefits.
    Do I take care of my health? Do I stay in IOT or try to work perdiem for a while just to earn cash. I am going to shoot myself in the foot if I work in order to pay the bills even if I feel I am not well enough to work? AAAAHHH!!!
    Pray as if everything depends upon Heaven
    Work as if everything depends upon you
  7. by   krisssy
    Quote from sasha2006
    Perhaps with your experience, you could provide some suggestions for my situation. I am a student nurse with a generalized anxiety disorder and find it difficult on occasions to concentrate and focus during my clinical rotation. I need advice on how to help keep myself organized and keep it together. I do know that it helps alot when i feel prepared but what can you do when there are things that you can't prepare for? Also, in what ways can i prepare for my shift? (I am currently doing my rotation on a Med/Surg floor with a heavy patient load and i am finding it very challenging to prioritize care and to keep up to speed).
    Any advice would be greatly appreciated,
    sasha2006
    Experience will make a big difference. I felt the same way in nursing school. I would post this in a different area where you will get more answers from experienced nurses. You don't need to have an anxiety disorder to feel how you feel as a student. I would post this under the general area or in the area where experienced nurses give students advice or under the student section to see how other students have found ways to cope. Krisssy
  8. by   krisssy
    Quote from sarabasedis
    I am involved in a divorce from my x. My job related stress led me to go into intensive outpatient therapy. I am not working. The manic depression I was experiencing caused me to spend all my cash, so now I am desperately trying to hold onto my house. My divorce lawyer says that my x's lawyer thinks I am trying to manipulate the system by "faking it" since I am a college educated woman while my x only has 3 yrs of college and earns alot of cash. I am about to lose my health care benefits.
    Do I take care of my health? Do I stay in IOT or try to work perdiem for a while just to earn cash. I am going to shoot myself in the foot if I work in order to pay the bills even if I feel I am not well enough to work? AAAAHHH!!!
    You must take care of yourself before you can help others. Can you apply for social security disability and then get medicare? You can get ss disability for mental illness, and then you get Medicare with it. Krisssy
  9. by   sarabasedis
    I have applied for SSID, but it seems to be taking a very long time. Meanwhile, the IOT plans to discharge me in 1-2weeks. Should I take a job I was offered? I just need to have some confidence, but my anxiety gets in the way
  10. by   elizabells
    I'm sure we've probably covered this already in the thread, but...

    What, EXACTLY, do I have to disclose to a potential employer? My cyclothymia does not interfere with my ability to do my job. I don't take benzos anymore, but I do take Adderall, which could show up on a drug screen as an amphetamine. Do I have to tell them anything?
  11. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from grannynurse FNP student
    Unfortunately, a great number of states have only Medicaid. And a good number of us have income that disallows us from that system.

    Grannynurse

    Yes, even MINIMAL income can exclude us from getting help with medical and also housing and food! sigh...
  12. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from DogloverLFC
    I am a nurse that has major depression and ptsd. i have been having alot of flashbacks memories lately. i realize i have lived in denial most of my life and making poor judgements, including in my nursing career. Poor judgements that caused me to make mistakes and lose jobs. I am struggling with trusting myself to continue to work because of my mental illness. There isn't anything else I am qualified to do. I can't seem to let go of my mistakes and am obsessed with thinking about them. Can anyone out there help me with some advice or offer hope, own experiences?

    Hi, Doglover, don't know if I responded before but I KNOW THE FEELING - I have "retired" from nursing so many times (whenever I got REALLY sick) because of all this. The last time (2 1/2 yrs ago), I was starting to really "fudge" on my documentation and "minor" medications because I just could not keep up - and that killed me. So hopefully this is the last time I will "retire" - I am checking out activity therapy certification and there is also a degree I may pursue. We'll see. I'm on SSDI now and taking it slow.

    Beating yourself up; shame; will just keep you SICK! But I'm sure you know that already!

    By the way - what does this -- :trout: -- smiley mean??? it's weird!!!


    xo
  13. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from sarabasedis
    Dear Doglover,
    I have also struggled with poor judgements, anxiety disorder which caused me to make mistakes, which caused more anxiety...You may be obsessing over your past. You have to let go of it. Remember the saying: The past is history the future is a mystery, the present is a gift from God, which is why it is called a present.
    By engaging in obsessive thinking, you are creating a treadmill for yourself. You are not a victim, or a survivor, but a wonderful, intelligent human being ( see what I learned in IOT?)

    You learned a LOT!

    {{{{{{{{{{Sarabasedis}}}}}}}}
    Last edit by Liddle Noodnik on May 1, '06

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